Thankyou all for ur advice.i will try to sort it out. I feel like i have a mental block tho and cant get past it it is so frustrating that it makes me suicidal at times.
I found a letter i had off the hospital from last june which says i have cka stage 3 or something but this hasnt been explained to me. I have sum numbness in fingers and toes. Why isnt this enough to sort myself out. Im an intelligent woman with a professional career in the health care sector and to the outside world im very together and able to deal with other peoples issues i just wish i cud deal with my own.
Sorry to go on just need somewhere to vent as no one in my life nos how bad it is.
There are 5 stages to Chronic Kidney Disease, and you are in stage 3, so hopefully if you can get things under better control it won't deteriorate any further, as stage 5 is end kidney disease needing dialysis or transplant as far as I'm aware. Even with stage 3 there's 2 levels , eg 3a and 3b. I'm at the better stage 3a so I don't leak much protein, you may or may not be at stage 3b where you are showing protein. It would be a real shame and more than a serious inconvenience to your life and family if it gets to the stage of you needing dialysis.
There's also a correlating incidence of retinopathy development which can go hand in hand with deteriorating kidney function, possibly because of the high sugar levels affecting the eye tissue at the same rate as the kidneys. In addition it seems to be accepted that most people with end stage kidney disease will lose their life due to cardiac problems from the high blood pressure associated with kidney disease. So sorry to say all this at a time when you're struggling but it's really important that you know you're storing up big problems for yourself if you continue in this fashion. Because there will be no going back once it's happened.
With you saying people at work thinking you're very on the ball and on top of things, is it possible the problem stems lies with the lack of control on your life you feel being diabetic is causing you as an additional burden? Sometimes it is the people who appear on the outside to be the strongest and in charge of their life who have the most difficulty in seeking or asking for help when they need it. I really hope you can take some of the advice from the links others have given you on how to improve things or get help and make a start on turning things round while there is still time. And wish you all the best. The longest journey begins with the first step.
