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- Type of diabetes
- Type 1
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- Insulin
Hi there,
So I've been in a pretty terrible place over the last few years, despite having had T1DM for 13years now, and I hope that joining this forum might be the start of getting back on track.
I do enough diabetes management to get by with living and I mean living in its simplest form i.e. I take my basal insulin and if I can remember to take my bolus then that's me excelling at diabetes... (mmm exactly). My measuring is sporadic. I might measure for a few days perfectly. Pre-meal & 2hrs post meal because I'll be on a brief "sort-your-life-out" mission. Then if I get some really rubbish readings, I become really disheartened and stop.
I've been trying to get a pump for the last 5years. During that time I've seen GPs, Endocrine Professors and numerous nurses saying a pump would be a really good thing for me, why am I not on a pump already? etc etc. 5years ago my bloods were reasonable. Not great but suitable for nhs pump consideration. With each appointment that goes past I see the pump moving further and further away from me. This also really makes my motivation plummet. Currently there's no chance for pump consideration because I don't measure enough. Which sends me into feeling even worse. Another thing I find hard is that I work in healthcare and I feel like a fraud because I know all the complications and I've seen people with the complications. I can help others but I can't find the 'get up and go' to help myself.
My partner split up with me at the beginning of this year and said my approach to my diabetes was a big factor in the breakup. This was at a point where my control was actually on the up. HbA1c was the lowest it's been in years! Although it was still a pretty horrible number, I was measuring and I felt like it was the turning point and that I could keep this downwards trend going on. I felt like this was a person I could actually talk to about my diabetes. Since the break up it's left me feeling alone, feeling even worse about my diabetes and I ended up a few months ago in A&E resus with DKA.
Can anyone help please? Wise words, motivational tips, strategies to get some measuring/ injecting stability back, ...honestly anything will help.
I hate that I've let diabetes control me, to the point that the only way I can feel I have control is by ignoring it completely. I can't go on switching from accepting my diabetes for a few days to ignoring it for a few weeks, and overall making me feel like I lead a really really miserable life. Help.
So I've been in a pretty terrible place over the last few years, despite having had T1DM for 13years now, and I hope that joining this forum might be the start of getting back on track.
I do enough diabetes management to get by with living and I mean living in its simplest form i.e. I take my basal insulin and if I can remember to take my bolus then that's me excelling at diabetes... (mmm exactly). My measuring is sporadic. I might measure for a few days perfectly. Pre-meal & 2hrs post meal because I'll be on a brief "sort-your-life-out" mission. Then if I get some really rubbish readings, I become really disheartened and stop.
I've been trying to get a pump for the last 5years. During that time I've seen GPs, Endocrine Professors and numerous nurses saying a pump would be a really good thing for me, why am I not on a pump already? etc etc. 5years ago my bloods were reasonable. Not great but suitable for nhs pump consideration. With each appointment that goes past I see the pump moving further and further away from me. This also really makes my motivation plummet. Currently there's no chance for pump consideration because I don't measure enough. Which sends me into feeling even worse. Another thing I find hard is that I work in healthcare and I feel like a fraud because I know all the complications and I've seen people with the complications. I can help others but I can't find the 'get up and go' to help myself.
My partner split up with me at the beginning of this year and said my approach to my diabetes was a big factor in the breakup. This was at a point where my control was actually on the up. HbA1c was the lowest it's been in years! Although it was still a pretty horrible number, I was measuring and I felt like it was the turning point and that I could keep this downwards trend going on. I felt like this was a person I could actually talk to about my diabetes. Since the break up it's left me feeling alone, feeling even worse about my diabetes and I ended up a few months ago in A&E resus with DKA.
Can anyone help please? Wise words, motivational tips, strategies to get some measuring/ injecting stability back, ...honestly anything will help.
I hate that I've let diabetes control me, to the point that the only way I can feel I have control is by ignoring it completely. I can't go on switching from accepting my diabetes for a few days to ignoring it for a few weeks, and overall making me feel like I lead a really really miserable life. Help.