This my second post, having never posted before.
I appreciate all that has been said. Luckily, or not, I was 16 when I was diagnosed so have not had to deal with it from such an early age. All I would say is that, in my experience you have will have a repeat of the feeling sorry for yourself (I do NOT mean this in any kind of derogatory way, it's what I still suffer from) for the rest of your life or being cured. There is no easy way to deal with this:
Why me?
What have I done?
When was I so bad?
I have always been good!
I have never been nasty!
I am always so nice!
Not to decry anyone's religious beliefs but your are NOT being punished! It's a bit like the lottery, you just happened to get a bad set of numbers (or genes). You need to remember for all the **** it dishes out you are still pretty unique as a IDDM - there are approximately 150,000 of us in the UK out of a population of 63,000,000! How many of your friends/family/workmates/fellow students are so UNIQUE! I would suggest very few...
Having been IDDM for 31 years I have only meet 5 other diabetics - other than through clinics. One of these was my brother who only lasted 2 years! I have had issues of guilt as to why a newly diagnosed diabetic died when I had had it for 12 years, at that time. However, this does not achieve anything and as my parents told me, eventually, I need to live my own life. They "allowed" me to move to London leaving the rest of the family in Edinburgh. They accepted that regardless of distance, should my time be up, it would be immaterial how close they were to me!
Being down about our condition is only natural but as I said you are fairly unique! You will end up with a very supportive partner - you'll soon get rid of the idiots who don't get it! You have a family/friends (some will be unable to handle it - their loose not yours!) who will be supportive & understanding (moods are a nightmare!).
Finally, what always gives me a kick up my backside it to remember going to an IDDM check up at Edinburgh Royal Infirmary after 5 years of diagnosis. I was on the bus, coming in from the countryside, and this family got on a few stops after me. This young kid, no more than four, was running about having a laugh and just enjoying himself in an un-annoying way. Just before I (we, as it turned out) was about to get off his hat feel off - he was undergoing chemotherapy and didn't have a care in the world! Why was I a 21 year old, about to get his first flat, feeling sorry for myself? This kid may not even get to my age or even my diagnosis age!
However, low or down you get, remember there is, without fail, someone worse off than you, for whatever reason that may be. It's perhaps not the best cure but it works for me when I am on a downer.
Take care of yourselves and following instructions, most of the time, usually ensure your levels are normal and you can life a fairly normal life. My only issue with this is CARBS - cut them down ALONG with you insulin and you should find life/complications easier. I have only felt well when removing them - rice, pasta, bread, pizza, potatoes including crisps, - eat lean meats, veg (lots have little to low carbs) & fruit (which are usually higher in carbs but satisfy a sweet tooth - a diabetics worse nightmare). Add nuts - not ready salted peanuts - for a a bit of savoury taste. Or mix them all to suit you - steaming veg in a Microwave only takes a couple of minutes...
I hope my honesty hits home and NOT aid your upset...