As the title says, I know my current feelings will pass but I think I'm in desperate need of a good vent. It's been five months since my diagnosis and I've overcome the learning curve of it all, am able to correctly bolus according to carb content etc etc.. I've just been feeling quite sick of it all. I'm young- 17- and dealing with my 'teenage crises' ( 
) with diabetes ontop is quite a handful. I'm still trying to overcome the emotional aspect of the diagnosis- I've come a long way since June and am able to manage quite fine but more times than not I feel an overwhelming amount of sadness towards my condition. I don't know of any people aside from distant family friends with Type 1 and although I now family are always there for me when I need to talk or let anything out they just don't understand. I'm the only one in my family with T1 so it can be quite lonely. I have alot of mental issues aside from diabetes and things get quite overwhelming quite frequently. Sometimes, more so recently than before, I'll eat meals without testing or bolusing just to try and 'forget'. Yesterday my sugar was at 30 before bed and I had to force myself to inject, only to go low and treat then proceed to feeling sorry for myself. My HBA1C was measured at 48 last month which I was told was 'excellent'- which completely baffled me considering I had been letting my sugars sky rocket for about three months. I understand change can only be implemented by myself first and foremost, I'm just feeling exhausted. I just want to be like any other teen who doesn't need to worry about the hefty weight of a life long condition 24/7. I understand there will be long term complications if I continue with this carelessness but sometimes I can't bring myself to care. If anyone would like to offer some words of advice, although I myself do know what I need to do.. some reinforcement would be very much appreciated. Many thanks
) with diabetes ontop is quite a handful. I'm still trying to overcome the emotional aspect of the diagnosis- I've come a long way since June and am able to manage quite fine but more times than not I feel an overwhelming amount of sadness towards my condition. I don't know of any people aside from distant family friends with Type 1 and although I now family are always there for me when I need to talk or let anything out they just don't understand. I'm the only one in my family with T1 so it can be quite lonely. I have alot of mental issues aside from diabetes and things get quite overwhelming quite frequently. Sometimes, more so recently than before, I'll eat meals without testing or bolusing just to try and 'forget'. Yesterday my sugar was at 30 before bed and I had to force myself to inject, only to go low and treat then proceed to feeling sorry for myself. My HBA1C was measured at 48 last month which I was told was 'excellent'- which completely baffled me considering I had been letting my sugars sky rocket for about three months. I understand change can only be implemented by myself first and foremost, I'm just feeling exhausted. I just want to be like any other teen who doesn't need to worry about the hefty weight of a life long condition 24/7. I understand there will be long term complications if I continue with this carelessness but sometimes I can't bring myself to care. If anyone would like to offer some words of advice, although I myself do know what I need to do.. some reinforcement would be very much appreciated. Many thanks 
