new to this forum but not new to diabetes. Well am dave 26 been diabetic since i was 13 and my diabetes as always been bad. constantly high blood sugars with keytones and my hbc (think thats what its called) levels is always above 9 and i think its been as high as 13. Ive had argon laser twice in my left high and a 4mm by 4m scratch on me cornea in my right eye so saw a specialist last week who wants to do a corenal graft but instead of having it done by hand to replace the cornea he wants me to wait till a new machine comes out that does it and brings down the risks and healing time.
Anyway nearly ended up in a diabetic coma bout a month ago but the ambulance crew managed to bring me round and i refused to go to hospital as i really do hate them for my own personal reasons and experience. i have a habit of not taking my blood sugar levels and my insulin. I now have a diabetic nurse i started looking after myself and felt great i had loads of energy again and my moods stopped and felt great but now ive slipped back into my old habits and now i feel **** everyday again with mood swings and i feel down.. this is all started again since i came off sick and went back to work.
I think its because ive not accepted that am diabetic and for personal reasons from me being young till me getting diabetes and then other problems around the time i got it which i would rather not go into. winds me up though coz my 5 year old girl is diabetic and i i proper look after hers well when she stays with me always make sure i check her blood levels and work out her dosage of insulin to how many carbs shes having and give her both insulin on time everyday but yet i carnt do this for myself. diabetes doesnt run in family as my nans (rip) could'nt rember there nans or anyone having it so i was first as far as were was aware then my daughter got it when she was 2. shes very good with it however i feel guilty as like if i wernt her dad she would be like this.
anyway advice i need is that am thinking bout leaving my job and having a few month without working while i get on top of my health and get to bottom of why i never do what im suppose to do. if i left my job to do this would i be able to get any help paying my rent and council tax and how do i go about this ive worked since i was 16 and have never been out of work. tried ring citzens advice but can never get through and it just says ring back later and the people at job centre i rung for advise was about as helpful as a chocalate fireguard and put the phone down when i asked if they was actually listening to me.
sorry for long boring essay lol and hope everyone is keeping well and feels well lol
Anyway nearly ended up in a diabetic coma bout a month ago but the ambulance crew managed to bring me round and i refused to go to hospital as i really do hate them for my own personal reasons and experience. i have a habit of not taking my blood sugar levels and my insulin. I now have a diabetic nurse i started looking after myself and felt great i had loads of energy again and my moods stopped and felt great but now ive slipped back into my old habits and now i feel **** everyday again with mood swings and i feel down.. this is all started again since i came off sick and went back to work.
I think its because ive not accepted that am diabetic and for personal reasons from me being young till me getting diabetes and then other problems around the time i got it which i would rather not go into. winds me up though coz my 5 year old girl is diabetic and i i proper look after hers well when she stays with me always make sure i check her blood levels and work out her dosage of insulin to how many carbs shes having and give her both insulin on time everyday but yet i carnt do this for myself. diabetes doesnt run in family as my nans (rip) could'nt rember there nans or anyone having it so i was first as far as were was aware then my daughter got it when she was 2. shes very good with it however i feel guilty as like if i wernt her dad she would be like this.
anyway advice i need is that am thinking bout leaving my job and having a few month without working while i get on top of my health and get to bottom of why i never do what im suppose to do. if i left my job to do this would i be able to get any help paying my rent and council tax and how do i go about this ive worked since i was 16 and have never been out of work. tried ring citzens advice but can never get through and it just says ring back later and the people at job centre i rung for advise was about as helpful as a chocalate fireguard and put the phone down when i asked if they was actually listening to me.
sorry for long boring essay lol and hope everyone is keeping well and feels well lol