Fallgal, you are NOT a loser! You're adjusting to a new way of life, with new and additional routines and needs to keep your body healthy. I was in your position a few weeks ago, utterly terrified of pricking my fingers. I've found that setting a specific time for testing, and even putting on soothing music, helps me gain the courage to "snap" myself (I think of the pricks to draw blood as snaps, don't know why). Using a lower setting on your lancet device certainly does help minimize pain, as does making sure your fingers/hands are warm and dry. I've also found that wrapping a rubber band or hair band (the small plastic ones) around the finger I'm going to test with makes the process a lot easier, eliminates a lot of fruitless squeezing of my fingers to get enough blood to sample. (Pricking your finger and then not getting enough blood for a sample is so frustrating, then you have to prick again.) Can you meet with a diabetes educator to talk strategies or tips to help make tests less painful and/or stress-inducing? Promise yourself a non-food reward after the test? Have your husband hold your hand or hug you while you test?
I hope you're now testing easy, or at least easier.
I've just been using one a day now 
