I got diabetes out of the blue 20 yrs ago when i was 11 yrs old, after my GP sent me home on 3 separate occasions misdiagnosing me i slipped into a coma and was gone for 4 days and nearly died from the effects of high bloodsugar. But i survived and since then life has not been overly easy for me, and in response to some of the troubles i faced i have definitely done a lot of stuff i shouldn't have - mainly drinking, smoking and doing a bunch of class A and B drugs for days on end between my late teens and mid twenties, living more like a rock star rather than a healthy level headed person, tbh it was the same way of my friends spent their time and i didn't seem to care about anything. Surprisingly my HBA1C results were always some of the best according to my doctor (highest ever was 6.5% but usually between 5 and 6%) but i am aware that these are just an average which could be skewed by the effects of prolonged low BS'. Since my mid twenties i have had several injuries that have affected my ability to exercise to a high level, and that has made for me gaining a few pounds (My BMi is currently 28 i think which is borderline fat although i wouldn't say i am obese fwiw) I have recently read a bunch of info on the effects of diabetes and it has really scared my me a lot. I have ceased all drinking / smoking and am trying to eat really well although i still munch sweet stuff too much usually when i am feeling stressed, which is a lot due to my constant worry of the health effects i will face later in my life. So here's a few things i would like to achieve... * Deal with the emotional side of facing these inevitable complications. * Stabilize my diet through solid diet plan aimed at being able to exercise for extended periods of time. * Lose some of those pounds i have put on. * Do anything extra i can to minimize the effects of diabetes on me when i am older. Fwiw (and without trying to be too bigheaded i feel i am a decently intelligent human being and am aware there is no magic answer to this problem, but i really can't stop worrying about it and really hope that i can help myself get over this slump and enjoy the rest of my life, thx in advance for any help offered.