I really feel for you, Laura, because I know your thought process so well. I was always horrified of the thought of gaining weight (such a no-no in today's culture of the body beautiful) and I was terrified of going hypo (one of the worst feelings in the world). I also found it difficult to understand why when some people could manage their condition so well, I was constantly mis-managing mine and had this never ending internal struggle going on inside my head. Sometimes, I look at the big picture and it's just so huge, scary and overwhelming and like I said before, I still don't have perfect control. But, instead, I try and take it on a day by day, sometimes an hour by hour approach. If I mess up, I accept I've done so and move on and try again.
With regards to the low carb diet, there's a lot of controversy about it in the Diabetic world but the more I read about it and the more I try it myself, the more convinced i'm becoming, as long as you do it properly. Educate yourself about your condition, how food and insulin affect your body. Low carbing should not make you gain wet, in fact, low carb diets have been found to be successful in weight loss programmes. Carbohydrates are the main source of energy for the body and when you consume them, your blood glucose rises according to the type of carbohydrate. By reducing the your carb intake, you reduce the rise in blood glucose levels after meals, therefore requiring less insulin. But you should still take your long acting insulin, as this is not food dependent and is necessary for maintaining your basic metabolism. Here's an interesting infographic:
http://www.factfixx.com/wp-content/uplo ... ng_You.png
Also, look at
http://www.amazon.co.uk/Dr-Bernsteins-D ... s+solution
And if you're on Facebook, have a look at this page.
https://www.facebook.com/LchfDiabetes?fref=ts
There's a wealth of information out there and you sound like you know what you should and shouldn't be doing. Sometimes, too much intelligence is not always a good thing! ;-) Also, have you attended a DAFNE (Dose Adjustment for Normal Eating) course. run by your local health care provider. I went on the course a few years ago and it really helped me to understand Diabetes a lot and the impact of certain foods on my glucose levels.
On a final note, I think i'm going mad. Just got up to make myself a coffee and realise i'd already made it. I have no recollection! Go figure, eh!
Best of luck, Laura
Julie