Hi all
Coming on here I'll admit for a moan! I am feeling sorry for myself again today - some days I just get on with things but other days I get thinking about the Diabetes diagnosis and how it affects me....
My Husband does not understand - he is stick thin, eats like a pig, and when I told him my diagnosis and how upset I was - he just told me "It's not like you have cancer or Type 1 the more serious one!!!". My kids (14, 13 and 5 ) don't seem to care - if I mention anything - a worry - something I've read etc..... they literally roll their eyes and basically state " You off again?" - obviously not my 5 year old!
No-one else in my family has Diabetes although all are overweight, same gene pool etc - they got tested after my diagnosis. I was diagnosed Jan 2009 and still haven't got my head sorted about it. In April 2009 I had my first Retinal Screening and they detected Retinal Detatchment - they rushed me into hospital and I underwent a very unpleasant op. Subsequently although without the op my sight would've gone in that eye by last Xmas, I have been left with very reduced sight in that eye. I feel so sorry for myself - yes I am overweight but I am always following a weight loss diet plan of some kind, I test my blood every morning and have finally got the readings before breakkie to under 7 MOST mornings.
My next retinal screening is April 6th and I am panicking incase something is wrong with my 'good' eye. I feel close to tears just typing this - no-one I feel I can talk to - no-one seems bothered enough to listen to me and hear me out! I panic incase other damage is being done internally whenever my levels go higher.
Since being put on Metformin 2 times a day back in Jan 2009 I had to go to Drs to see them as was getting REALLY REALLY forgetful, it iritates me my forgetfulness. They reduced my tablets to one a day which initially helped but now the problem is returning. I am forgetting sentences when half way through and literally am going blank. It is happening too often now for my liking and has become a 'joke' in my house every time it happens - I am not laughing! Even my 5 yr old the other day when I told him he was not allowed something later that day told me "Thats ok mum - you'll forget about it later and I can still do it" (whatever IT was!). That freaks me that it must be common enough for him to notice at 5!
I am 36 but feel much older. I feel a leper! I worry if my levels don't go down enough that they'll want to up my pills again and if that happens my memory will worsen even more!
I worry about my feet, I miss walking around barefooted, am always in blimin' slippers now!
I have lost a stone so far this year but my weight losses have slowed right down and are now about 1 lb a week which I know is healthier than bigger losses and that they all add up but I used to be renowned for my larger losses (along with larger gains(!) ) - I just feel soooooooo low today!
Last night went to a Theatre show and even there was made to feel a leper - they did something with the audience but excluded Diabetics along with a couple of other illnesses..... Diabetes is affecting me daily thanks to reduced vision, slipper wearing, pill popping, diet requirements - aaarrrrgggghhhhh!!!!!!
WHY ME!!!!! Why does Type 2 have a stigma re. weight attached to it when lots of much heavier people I know have tested negative to it!!???!!!
WHY when I went down at age 27 to Drs re. weight gain wasn't my glucose tested alongside Thyroid and me having it judged to my age and genes..... IF I had been tested and proven Diabetic would I have my eye probs now - eye DR said had probs over 5 years!!!!!
Coming on here I'll admit for a moan! I am feeling sorry for myself again today - some days I just get on with things but other days I get thinking about the Diabetes diagnosis and how it affects me....
My Husband does not understand - he is stick thin, eats like a pig, and when I told him my diagnosis and how upset I was - he just told me "It's not like you have cancer or Type 1 the more serious one!!!". My kids (14, 13 and 5 ) don't seem to care - if I mention anything - a worry - something I've read etc..... they literally roll their eyes and basically state " You off again?" - obviously not my 5 year old!
No-one else in my family has Diabetes although all are overweight, same gene pool etc - they got tested after my diagnosis. I was diagnosed Jan 2009 and still haven't got my head sorted about it. In April 2009 I had my first Retinal Screening and they detected Retinal Detatchment - they rushed me into hospital and I underwent a very unpleasant op. Subsequently although without the op my sight would've gone in that eye by last Xmas, I have been left with very reduced sight in that eye. I feel so sorry for myself - yes I am overweight but I am always following a weight loss diet plan of some kind, I test my blood every morning and have finally got the readings before breakkie to under 7 MOST mornings.
My next retinal screening is April 6th and I am panicking incase something is wrong with my 'good' eye. I feel close to tears just typing this - no-one I feel I can talk to - no-one seems bothered enough to listen to me and hear me out! I panic incase other damage is being done internally whenever my levels go higher.
Since being put on Metformin 2 times a day back in Jan 2009 I had to go to Drs to see them as was getting REALLY REALLY forgetful, it iritates me my forgetfulness. They reduced my tablets to one a day which initially helped but now the problem is returning. I am forgetting sentences when half way through and literally am going blank. It is happening too often now for my liking and has become a 'joke' in my house every time it happens - I am not laughing! Even my 5 yr old the other day when I told him he was not allowed something later that day told me "Thats ok mum - you'll forget about it later and I can still do it" (whatever IT was!). That freaks me that it must be common enough for him to notice at 5!
I am 36 but feel much older. I feel a leper! I worry if my levels don't go down enough that they'll want to up my pills again and if that happens my memory will worsen even more!
I worry about my feet, I miss walking around barefooted, am always in blimin' slippers now!
I have lost a stone so far this year but my weight losses have slowed right down and are now about 1 lb a week which I know is healthier than bigger losses and that they all add up but I used to be renowned for my larger losses (along with larger gains(!) ) - I just feel soooooooo low today!
Last night went to a Theatre show and even there was made to feel a leper - they did something with the audience but excluded Diabetics along with a couple of other illnesses..... Diabetes is affecting me daily thanks to reduced vision, slipper wearing, pill popping, diet requirements - aaarrrrgggghhhhh!!!!!!
WHY ME!!!!! Why does Type 2 have a stigma re. weight attached to it when lots of much heavier people I know have tested negative to it!!???!!!
WHY when I went down at age 27 to Drs re. weight gain wasn't my glucose tested alongside Thyroid and me having it judged to my age and genes..... IF I had been tested and proven Diabetic would I have my eye probs now - eye DR said had probs over 5 years!!!!!
