Hello I hope you don't mind me joining this thread! I'm 12 weeks + 1 day (according to my calculations
), and due to have my 12 week scan on Tuesday
. It was a planned pregnancy and my hba1c was 51 when we conceived. I thought I was doing great when I got my next hba1c through of 49 (I think that's 6.5%) as its the best I've ever been ( I used to have hba1c of 10% pre-pregnancy!!) and was busy thinking well done me, and the nurse just said well it needs to be tight, no well done or anything.
Im on a pump and send a report off to the dsn every week, and wait for them to come back with suggestions of how to change basal, as it seems to change every week. They just seem to expect so much more from me than I can possibly do, and I am so stressed with trying to keep my levels right, and carb counting until I have nightmares about it. I even weigh most of my meals to make sure correct bolus etc.
anyway last night I felt rubbish and tested, my BG was 16!!
And I promptly burst into tears and feel like giving up. I am so scared it is going to have damaged the baby and SO SCARED of sending my next lot of results through to the dsn, and await their telling off. I woke up this morning with a bg of 12, and so its obviously been high all night even though I had corrected.
Awaiting the scan on Tuesday, but I suppose it wont even show on there if there's been damage or not.
Have any of you had high BG's as high as this?
So worried. I just want my precious baby to be healthy and feel so terrible that I might have done something to hurt it
I feel so bad. Desperately want to give up but know I CAN NOT.
Sorry just getting it all out the system!!!
J xx