I know how you feel, I was the same when I was diagnosed, Type 2, I listen to my body. I know when my sugars drop. I check but they are normal, I was told that they were probably were high and have dropped to normal, but were high all day so it makes you feel low, I forget what it's called. When I was diagnosed 7 years ago I didn't have much advice or help from my doctor, I have been guessing and reading on here to. Sometimes reading stuff on here scares me terribly so be careful where you read. Type 2 can be scary especially if others don't understand the disease and the fear a person has around it which is very normal. But if you don't have the right professional to talk about your fears you feel worse. I find the whole wording around Diabetes has put a huge stigma around Diabetes and it is really making me angry, things like "you must have been fat" or " you need to lose wieght" or " you drank pop" or " it's the way you think"( when I told my doctor I was scared) oh my god I could go on and on, and the media doesn't help with the stigma, and commercials that scare the heck out of ya, so now I don't tell people I have Type 2 Diabetes because of all the bullying, I live in silence which is worse it's caused me depression and anxiety. I felt so depressed a few years ago I was hospitalized. Living with diabetes is hell, and I'm not on medication as of now. But I know it's coming and I don't know how I am going to handle that. People need to educate and stop bullying people with Diabetes type 2. The stigma has to STOP. And the fear that is instilled. I am learning to try and speak up, to the ignorance of people, because the type of person I am I don't speak out, I get tongue twisted because I am so shocked at what people say, very ignorant and mean, and words hurt. Diabetes is not caused by what you ate, it is not because you were overweight, because thin people get Type 2 diabetes to. It's your pancreas that just doesn't work the way it should, wieght gain is a sign of diabetes not a cause. I was the same as you when I was told, then a few weeks later it hit me and cried and cried, then my doctor put me on antidepressants the worst thing for me, it was grief, and you do go through grief it is a loss, look on the Canadian diabetes website it explains about the grief and shock, it's like losing a loved one, having a chronic illness is a loss. You will, feel angry, scared, and all the other signs of grief. I have lots of grief after the diabetes diagnosis few years after I lost my dear mom, and went through it again, then we lost my husbands brother it's been an emotional roller coaster in the last few years, and the grief comes in waves of all the griefs. Read articles on grief, it will ease your mind on what your feeling, and the diet part of diabetes try going to a diabetic educator at your local hospital. And pick up books on diabetes diet. Talk to others who have diabetes talk to your family on how scared you feel. I had my mom and husband to get me through the beginning after I was diagnosed, you need a lot of support with diabetes.. forever.