Hi
@Lucia1
I was the same as you before I went on my pump.
The idea of being attached to a machine for the rest of my life was really off putting.
However, going on my pump was the best thing I ever did. My control has tightened and I'm achieving hba1c levels that I haven't had since childhood.
My injection sites have greatly improved and I'm feeling much happier as a person now that I'm more controlled.
With regards to having it attached to you all of the time you barely notice it, I clip mine onto my bra or wear it in my pocket.
There are lots of ways you can attach it to your clothing so you can easily hide it.
Before I committed to having my pump I got the chance to wear one for a week with just saline solution in it so you can get used to the feel of it without jumping whole heartedly into it so that'll be good for you. If you wear it for a few days and don't like it you simply take it off and that's the end of it.
There is lots and lots of support on this forum with regards to pump therapy if ever you're stuck.
I don't know your age or situation but if you every wanted children and got pregnant the pump is brilliant for control with that too.
All the best!
Claire x