I've been struggling with my diabetes for about a year now. ever since I've got bullied for it in the past. I go through stages in which I don't do my finger pricks or use my pump. everyone's saying it's easy to do and I'm being silly for not doing it. they don't know what it's like or what it feels like for doing it for so many years now. I've seen my sister not struggle and be the perfect diabetic but I'm not.. I'm so stuck on what to do.. I can't seem to get out of this phase of not doing my finger pricks and injections... I don't know what to do anymore or how to cope.
Were you managing ok until you got bullied? If so, and it was the bullying that was the start of your difficulties, then don't let the bullies win! Bullies aren't strong people - they're weak people who have low self esteem and bully other people to make themselves feel better.
You're stronger than them.
Don't worry about your sister. Your goal is to be the best YOU can. Diabetes, unfortunately, isn't one of those things you can ignore. If you ignore it, you're giving it power. If you can control it, you can limit its power and 'put it back in its cage'.
Is there anyone you can speak? Your DSN? Parents? A friend?
Try to set yourself small goals eg to do a blood test before each meal. Aim to take back control gradually. If you speak to your DSN, you'll find out that you're not the only one having problems. It is hard, but there are people who can help and support you.
Best wishes,
Azure