- Messages
- 871
- Type of diabetes
- Type 1
- Treatment type
- Insulin
First and foremost...diabetes.co.uk...you should be ashamed of yourselves...I was a regular visitor to this site for a long time and now you don't recognise me at all??? Really? And your app is utter rubbish....it won't direct me to anything I ask...it's only because I know better that I've persevered.
Anyway...I'm sure there are many of you who will remember me...and probably lots of new people who won't. I'm not looking for specific people...I just know I need some help right now and I know that there are people here who might understand.
2017 was...without doubt...the worst year of my life yet...in so so many ways. I won't go into the finer details here but for whatever reason I took myself away from the diabetes community....in hindsight...a really stupid move but at the time it made sense. Diabetes is nothing in comparison to Cancer...I felt I needed to support those closest to me...and I did...but somewhere along the line...I stopped caring about me and now that everyone else is at least kind of ok...me and my diabetes are suffering and I don't know for the life of me how to refocus my attention on what I should be doing...my bloods are stupid at best...laughable at worst and everything else is failing me so fast I can't keep track. All that hard work I put in seems to have gone to pot. I'm struggling with more issues than I care to admit to and I don't know where to turn. I'm going to counselling sessions etc but they don't really understand. I'd love nothing more than to get back to meetups but my confidence has taken such a major battering...that although I always try...on the day...I just cant...panic attacks and anxiety make it virtually impossible..but if anyone I know is reading this...it's not you...it's me lol. I don't know what I'm asking for...I think I'm just at the end of my tether and don't know which way to turn...any kind of help or support is welcome right now.
But please also know...this is the hardest message I've ever sent...I find it really hard to ask for help and I hate doing it but I really don't know where else to turn right now...if I can just get my bloods ok...maybe everything else will follow...?
Anyway...I'm sure there are many of you who will remember me...and probably lots of new people who won't. I'm not looking for specific people...I just know I need some help right now and I know that there are people here who might understand.
2017 was...without doubt...the worst year of my life yet...in so so many ways. I won't go into the finer details here but for whatever reason I took myself away from the diabetes community....in hindsight...a really stupid move but at the time it made sense. Diabetes is nothing in comparison to Cancer...I felt I needed to support those closest to me...and I did...but somewhere along the line...I stopped caring about me and now that everyone else is at least kind of ok...me and my diabetes are suffering and I don't know for the life of me how to refocus my attention on what I should be doing...my bloods are stupid at best...laughable at worst and everything else is failing me so fast I can't keep track. All that hard work I put in seems to have gone to pot. I'm struggling with more issues than I care to admit to and I don't know where to turn. I'm going to counselling sessions etc but they don't really understand. I'd love nothing more than to get back to meetups but my confidence has taken such a major battering...that although I always try...on the day...I just cant...panic attacks and anxiety make it virtually impossible..but if anyone I know is reading this...it's not you...it's me lol. I don't know what I'm asking for...I think I'm just at the end of my tether and don't know which way to turn...any kind of help or support is welcome right now.
But please also know...this is the hardest message I've ever sent...I find it really hard to ask for help and I hate doing it but I really don't know where else to turn right now...if I can just get my bloods ok...maybe everything else will follow...?