It's ALWAYS our fault lol. Am sure my dsn feels that I'm wrong in having the audacity to breathe!
I know what it's like to feel that you're the only person going through it, but, and I know it's not much consolation, you're not.
I've had every test known to man done. They could attach all the scans I've had done and completely reconstruct my body lol. And all they discovered was that I have a problem with digestion.
I've always tried to maintain a sense of humour when I go to clinic, but am wondering if perhaps they would do more if I went in sobbing about being unable to cope. Recently I was found to have a bg of 45.3 and they sent me home with their comment of if it was anyone but you we'd be worried ringing in my ears. My OH was close to hitting them that day!
Have you been admitted and put on a sliding scale? It might be worth trying. If they hook you up for long enuf it might give your pancreas enuf of a rest that, for want of a better word, it reboots itself and brings your bg down.
Before you next go to clinic, make a list of things you want to say and insist on some answers. They will be less able to blind you with science and change the subject if you know exactly what you want to ask.
I'm quite happy to let you know what they've done to me to try and get my bg down if it helps. You never know, you might be lucky and something might work for you xxx