Hi
@tizzy, So sorry to hear about your brother. And yes it can be embarrassing dealing with a hypo in that situation as it is in many others. But also perhaps think that your brother would probably have seen you do this in the past, as would have other family members. You were looking after your needs, to be able to better attend to what was happening. Not your fault but sort of in character with how things can be for us diabetics.
We all like to have standards for behaviour etc but have to sometimes break them to deal with our diabetes. I used to get sprung in school for eating in class. I have eaten at a dying family member's bedside too - I would rather not have but that person just smiled and gave me a thumbs up ! When I was a doctor working in a hospital, I would have sips of orange juice whilst assisting at an operation. I did what was necessary despite the risk of embarrassment, censure etc.
And
you are grieving. Things are likely to be topsy-turvy for a while. During such times I know I had to take extra care with my diabetes (as if the source of grieving was not enough to deal with) !
You may find
seeing a bereavement counsellor helps too.
Resilience is a buzz word for the notion of dealing with and surviving adversity. Sometimes our supply of it can become pretty drained. I believe that each of us has past experiences from which to draw from as a form of resilience. It may be a personal experience, or from a story we have read, a movie seen etc etc. The more of these we have the greater the 'bank' we can draw from so that if one does not work all that well in a given situation, another might. Some thing humorous, serious whatever works.
And let us not forget
humour or self-humour as a way through the slings and arrows of outrageous fortune.
Oh, another 6 jelly bean hypo !! Javelin throw time (injection time ) again ! I heard of a situation where the spouse and child would bet on what the pre-dinner BSL of the person would be, and the loser did the washing up !
Please be kind to yourself ! 1000 hugs !!!