Couldn’t put my finger on it for a long time but I appear to have nailed it. This WOE seems to me to be very much like figuring out who you want to be and how you want to live your life when a teenager. Some people seemed to enjoy things I instinctively shied away from - e.g. smoking, alcohol, interest in cars and motorbikes. Curiosity drove me to try some. The result was I have forever felt I really can’t see how that would ever work for me - except in very confined circumstances and for very short periods.
This WOE has so much in common , more FOMO than anything else. Without concern for the potential problems from lack of control nothing about this WOE suits me. I seem to be doing this out of fear, which has never worked for me. Colour me conflicted.