Hi najamadahir, I’ve had T1 for nearly 50 years and I can definitely say that it’s worth hanging in there even though it sometimes takes soooooo long to weigh and count carbs! If you can get it right then having decent blood sugars makes everything seem better!
Your feelings may be an effect of having highs. High and low blood sugars can make a big difference to the way we see things, to our emotions and motivation. I hate the bad effects of too many highs.
Don’t despair, there are ways to get on top of it all, though as many with T1 will confirm, there are sometimes days when the diabetes gremlins are in charge.
There are a few apps that help with assessing carbs. I use Carbs and Cals and scales to weigh foods with.
There are also books that help. Have you read ‘Think Like a Pancreas’ by Gary Scheiner or Sugar Surfing by Stephen Pinder? They’re both written by people who are T1 so they know what it’s like from the point of view of the jabber and calculator. They may help.
I think it may also help if your family knew more about the way T1 affects emotions, and maybe you could have a quiet, non-confrontational talk with them. They must have been supporting you while you grew up, you’ve survived, so they may well want to go on supporting you if they know why you’re getting so upset now.
Lots of people suffer from diabetes burnout, you’re not alone in that. I think most of us have times when we just want everyone to know how much we hate T1! But, please, hang in there. Things can change.
For now, though, have some hugs from a fellow T1