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- Type of diabetes
- Type 1
Hello, I’ve been a type 1 diabetic since I was 9 I am 23 now, I’ve suffered with being depressed since I was 14 and now I am ready to ask for help. I attempted suicide when I was 16 via letting myself go hypo and not treating it, since then I don’t care about my diabetes. How can I care when I don’t care about myself you know? I check my blood once a week and never carb count, just give myself units that sound correct.
I work around this when I have a doctors appointment by checking regularly around the time so it looks like (when they check my monitor) like I look like I’m checking. My doctor is aware I get depressed and she cares but I’ve never confided in her.
I’m ready to ask for help with my depression, I’ve seen 4 different doctors to do with mental health so I’ve started the ball rolling to get help and they all have told me to speak to my diabetic doctor, a week ago I left a note with the receptionist explaining the situation and how bad I’ve gotten but now it’s a week later and I’ve have no contact from my doctor.
From my point of view, someone who is depressed, sees this as the universe’s way of confirming what my fake thoughts are saying that no one cares about me. Obviously I know that’s silly, the doctor is rather busy or simply didn’t get the message.
I had another mental health assessment today who told me to contact my diabetic doctor again, but how can I? I went in to the hospital and handed a physical note to the receptionist in the diabetic clinic, if I was I will just be leaving a non-physical message to get to my doctor
Suggestion?
Thanks
I work around this when I have a doctors appointment by checking regularly around the time so it looks like (when they check my monitor) like I look like I’m checking. My doctor is aware I get depressed and she cares but I’ve never confided in her.
I’m ready to ask for help with my depression, I’ve seen 4 different doctors to do with mental health so I’ve started the ball rolling to get help and they all have told me to speak to my diabetic doctor, a week ago I left a note with the receptionist explaining the situation and how bad I’ve gotten but now it’s a week later and I’ve have no contact from my doctor.
From my point of view, someone who is depressed, sees this as the universe’s way of confirming what my fake thoughts are saying that no one cares about me. Obviously I know that’s silly, the doctor is rather busy or simply didn’t get the message.
I had another mental health assessment today who told me to contact my diabetic doctor again, but how can I? I went in to the hospital and handed a physical note to the receptionist in the diabetic clinic, if I was I will just be leaving a non-physical message to get to my doctor
Suggestion?
Thanks