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Hi,
I am 9 weeks pregnant and terrified. Before I knew I was pregnant (since the day conceived pretty much) and for about a week after I found out, I was suffering from outlandish highs. The worst went up to 20! I rang and spoke to my diabetic nurse several times and she wasn't very helpful. I then found out I was pregnant and she confirmed the highs were likely caused by the hormones. It settled down, and now I'm struggling the other way a bit but am receiving much better care at weekly appointments at a diabetic antenatal team. But I am terrified I did irreparable damage on those early weeks. I've never had such resistant highs and I am (uselessly of course) so mad at myself and my old Diabetic nurse that we didn't twig sooner. I've been so down about it, I even considered abortion today as the guilt and worry are killing me. We tried for this baby for 2.5 years and i want it so badly but I feel terrible. When will I know that everything is ok? We had a viability scan at 8 weeks and saw the heart beat, but now I'm so scared. Did anyone have similar and how was their babies? I spent all afternoon in floods of tears, and have an anxiety disorder anyway and I just wish I had a window to the womb to make sure the hitchhiker is doing ok. I want to tell her I am so so sorry for being such a **** mum already. Sorry for the emotional blergh. I just needed to reach out.
I am 9 weeks pregnant and terrified. Before I knew I was pregnant (since the day conceived pretty much) and for about a week after I found out, I was suffering from outlandish highs. The worst went up to 20! I rang and spoke to my diabetic nurse several times and she wasn't very helpful. I then found out I was pregnant and she confirmed the highs were likely caused by the hormones. It settled down, and now I'm struggling the other way a bit but am receiving much better care at weekly appointments at a diabetic antenatal team. But I am terrified I did irreparable damage on those early weeks. I've never had such resistant highs and I am (uselessly of course) so mad at myself and my old Diabetic nurse that we didn't twig sooner. I've been so down about it, I even considered abortion today as the guilt and worry are killing me. We tried for this baby for 2.5 years and i want it so badly but I feel terrible. When will I know that everything is ok? We had a viability scan at 8 weeks and saw the heart beat, but now I'm so scared. Did anyone have similar and how was their babies? I spent all afternoon in floods of tears, and have an anxiety disorder anyway and I just wish I had a window to the womb to make sure the hitchhiker is doing ok. I want to tell her I am so so sorry for being such a **** mum already. Sorry for the emotional blergh. I just needed to reach out.