Hi, I am new to this forum, I used to be embarrassed to even talk about been diabetic and felt alone- I'm a type1 diabetic of 31 years (since I was two) my HBA1C? is usually about 9- I've very recently started to grow up a bit and get more confident with the illness and just wanted to tell my story a bit and to state where I am mentally right now.
So, through child hood my parents were great but at that point I do not feel there was enough education around diabetes, through no fault of any of my family there was a tendency to keep my blood sugar on the high size, often eating foods I probably shouldn't have.
I was very very thin and feel my growth and body didn't grow as well as It should have as a result of my control, as I started dealing with the condition myself into my teens.. I was terrified of it, doctors had told me from a very young age that I risked losing limbs my site etc etc and I felt the weight of this, I drank more than I should probably have drank.. I abused substances throughout my 20s and into my 30s and to be honest I don't regret that as I believe they helped me mentally- I have worked since I was 16 and the lifestyle choices I made didn't really impact on that.
So, to recap, I had always been terrified of the condition into my late 20s, petrified of lows- over the last 6 years I have suffered from depression and put it down to things happening in my life, however lately I have really aknowledged the illness and thought, hey it probably impacts every single aspect of my life, I struggle to concentrate(school was a nightmare) one day I wake up and feel like I can do anything, the next I am an anxious wreck, talking to people is even daunting.
I am now at a point where I am not scared but I want to kick the diabetes ass and gain some control, I have a 4 year old son (non diabetic) and wana get on top of my game for him as much as anything else, any help and advice would be greatly appreciated as I've been feeling very down and hopeless about things of late and angry at the world, many thanks-
So, through child hood my parents were great but at that point I do not feel there was enough education around diabetes, through no fault of any of my family there was a tendency to keep my blood sugar on the high size, often eating foods I probably shouldn't have.
I was very very thin and feel my growth and body didn't grow as well as It should have as a result of my control, as I started dealing with the condition myself into my teens.. I was terrified of it, doctors had told me from a very young age that I risked losing limbs my site etc etc and I felt the weight of this, I drank more than I should probably have drank.. I abused substances throughout my 20s and into my 30s and to be honest I don't regret that as I believe they helped me mentally- I have worked since I was 16 and the lifestyle choices I made didn't really impact on that.
So, to recap, I had always been terrified of the condition into my late 20s, petrified of lows- over the last 6 years I have suffered from depression and put it down to things happening in my life, however lately I have really aknowledged the illness and thought, hey it probably impacts every single aspect of my life, I struggle to concentrate(school was a nightmare) one day I wake up and feel like I can do anything, the next I am an anxious wreck, talking to people is even daunting.
I am now at a point where I am not scared but I want to kick the diabetes ass and gain some control, I have a 4 year old son (non diabetic) and wana get on top of my game for him as much as anything else, any help and advice would be greatly appreciated as I've been feeling very down and hopeless about things of late and angry at the world, many thanks-