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- 16
- Type of diabetes
- Type 1
- Treatment type
- Insulin
I got diagnosed with T1 after an overdose in 2013 but wasn’t under a Diabetic Consultant/Dietician until being hospitalised by Diabetic Ketoacidosis (DKA) in Feb 2019.
I’ve been diagnosed with Emotionally Unstable Personality Disorder since 2008 and one of my traits is a need to self-harm.
In July 2018 I somehow started a body dysmorphic episode and attached insulin usage to the cause of my being fat, which resulted in me stopping my Novomix 30 injections. My glucose levels sat at 30+ each day and the weight dropped off me (I was severely malnourished) and it resulted in my blood gasses being elevated causing the DKA.
I knew the risks of mismanaging my insulin but my self-harm needs drove the actions. I needed immediate/short-term damage but it didn’t happen, so I settled for long-term damage, and got the DKA.
Even since the DKA and my insulin regime changed from Novomix 30 to Tresiba + NovoRapid, my need to use the insulin dosages as a weapon haven’t gone. I have periods of increasing the background insulin by 300%+, or refusing the background insulin, and/or refusing the Rapid before meals, and/or increasing the dosages by silly amounts.
At the moment I am struggling to remove the need to self-harm with my insulin and I am looking for advice
I now have a Diabetic Consultant/Dietician but they just seem to panic when I mention the mental health issues dealing to my insulin, and my Mental Health worker has no clue as it’s relating to my diabetes. Both teams just say talk to the other team.
Has anyone else had issues with using insulin as a weapon against themselves?
I’ve been diagnosed with Emotionally Unstable Personality Disorder since 2008 and one of my traits is a need to self-harm.
In July 2018 I somehow started a body dysmorphic episode and attached insulin usage to the cause of my being fat, which resulted in me stopping my Novomix 30 injections. My glucose levels sat at 30+ each day and the weight dropped off me (I was severely malnourished) and it resulted in my blood gasses being elevated causing the DKA.
I knew the risks of mismanaging my insulin but my self-harm needs drove the actions. I needed immediate/short-term damage but it didn’t happen, so I settled for long-term damage, and got the DKA.
Even since the DKA and my insulin regime changed from Novomix 30 to Tresiba + NovoRapid, my need to use the insulin dosages as a weapon haven’t gone. I have periods of increasing the background insulin by 300%+, or refusing the background insulin, and/or refusing the Rapid before meals, and/or increasing the dosages by silly amounts.
At the moment I am struggling to remove the need to self-harm with my insulin and I am looking for advice
I now have a Diabetic Consultant/Dietician but they just seem to panic when I mention the mental health issues dealing to my insulin, and my Mental Health worker has no clue as it’s relating to my diabetes. Both teams just say talk to the other team.
Has anyone else had issues with using insulin as a weapon against themselves?