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- Type of diabetes
- Type 1
- Treatment type
- Insulin
Just need to rant or vent I dunno
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When BGL are Low is it normal to be irritable, Argumentative and Suicidal?
I'm trapped in a very damaging frame of mind right now, If I'm not blaming myself for the failings in my life, I'm blaming others, if I'm not blaming others, I seriously take it up a notch and pin it to the system to the point I suffer from Mania, manic depression, have all kinds of episode's
Oh btw, I dont work, I dont have a social life, im on universal credit waiting for my Disability benefits.
So heres where my mind begins to wonder
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I swear to god everything could have been avoided if I did not come from such a broken dysfunctional family.
Or have a parent whose only imagination or priority in life was to have the electric bill paid instead of allowing your child to have a real future
To any idiot above the age of 50 that may have children who are in their Teens, Do not control their lives, don't even think about manipulating them to do what you think is best or what is right for them, it's not for you to decide because one day, this will be your child typing this post in the future. Let this be a warning to you now and I hope for their sakes you are not the cause of your child's destruction.
Seriously why do you lot even have children? It should be illegal to be a parent without having just cause or without even the basic understanding of what another life even is!
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Btw this is exactly what im talking about, theres so much pent up emotions, that it leads to i dont know *** this is frame of mind
Nothing better to do other than to stab myself multiple times a day
On days like this I've been testing myself 30 times to the point My fingers are so raw
I've been booked for CBT Talking Therapies.
Guess what, thats a long waiting list
Then theres a Diabetes Psychiatric Team I only found that out yesterday and have been booked on to that too
Seriously do I just off myself now or what?
Because this is it, this is where I want to draw the line.
I want a normal life, not be going through this **** at 27, diabetes runs in my family but everyone had a decent life right up to 50/60 before being diagnosed! And its type 2 that runs in the family
How the **** did I draw the Shortend of the stick?
The only thing I can think of is
**** life syndrome
No luck in life what so ever
Ok im done, Rant over
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When BGL are Low is it normal to be irritable, Argumentative and Suicidal?
I'm trapped in a very damaging frame of mind right now, If I'm not blaming myself for the failings in my life, I'm blaming others, if I'm not blaming others, I seriously take it up a notch and pin it to the system to the point I suffer from Mania, manic depression, have all kinds of episode's
Oh btw, I dont work, I dont have a social life, im on universal credit waiting for my Disability benefits.
So heres where my mind begins to wonder
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I swear to god everything could have been avoided if I did not come from such a broken dysfunctional family.
Or have a parent whose only imagination or priority in life was to have the electric bill paid instead of allowing your child to have a real future
To any idiot above the age of 50 that may have children who are in their Teens, Do not control their lives, don't even think about manipulating them to do what you think is best or what is right for them, it's not for you to decide because one day, this will be your child typing this post in the future. Let this be a warning to you now and I hope for their sakes you are not the cause of your child's destruction.
Seriously why do you lot even have children? It should be illegal to be a parent without having just cause or without even the basic understanding of what another life even is!
_________________
Btw this is exactly what im talking about, theres so much pent up emotions, that it leads to i dont know *** this is frame of mind
Nothing better to do other than to stab myself multiple times a day
On days like this I've been testing myself 30 times to the point My fingers are so raw
I've been booked for CBT Talking Therapies.
Guess what, thats a long waiting list
Then theres a Diabetes Psychiatric Team I only found that out yesterday and have been booked on to that too
Seriously do I just off myself now or what?
Because this is it, this is where I want to draw the line.
I want a normal life, not be going through this **** at 27, diabetes runs in my family but everyone had a decent life right up to 50/60 before being diagnosed! And its type 2 that runs in the family
How the **** did I draw the Shortend of the stick?
The only thing I can think of is
**** life syndrome
No luck in life what so ever
Ok im done, Rant over