Hi there
@Miss_Toria , and welcome to the forum.
I'm sorry you're feeling pretty bewildered and lost at the moment. I'm sure, given a little time, things will get easier. Sometimes it's just not easy to see that.
Within our membership, we have quite a number of people who are either living with an eating disorder (ED) now, or in the past. That includes myself. My challenge was a good going anorexia - albeit a long time before my diagnosis. I do still remember, very clearly, how being in the grasp of an ED made me feel and how it made me view life.
It was a terribly tough time (so, you have my sympathy and empathy), but some years on, I often say it was the making of me. Don't get me wrong;I'm not saying it was a good thing, but more that during that time I learned so much about myself and other people that I think made me a stronger person.
In terms of how you move forward? I'd urge you just to take things slowly for now. Living with diabetes is a long game. Today and tomorrow matter, but we have to think further forward than that, so there's no crashing rush right now.
I see that Nicole has suggested some reading/viewing. Well, I'd like to too.
I think sometimes when something like over-eating, under-eating, purging or whatever crop up, we think there's nobody like us, but the chances are, there are being like you, all around you.
The video is 45 minutes long, but it is entertaining, as well as being very informative:
(Just as a parting shot. Some of those commenting and responding in the video are members of this forum)
As lots of questions. That's how we all start our journeys, but please do talk to your Doc, and/or whoever helps you with your binge eating to work out a way forward.