As I'm sure you know
@lucylocket61. I've been through an awful lot since the turn of the century.......
...And I was only 45, like you it was just one thing after another culminating in RH in 2012. Having my life completely destroyed by events out of my control and the mental illness that entirely altered my personality and my outlook on life, as a carer for my disabled wife and the father in law, always needing help. And having to sacrifice your time and energy for no rewards other than knowing without you, how would you feel otherwise? I admire your resilience and fortitude, but who else would do it right?
I really understand the falling apart bit, I am trying to remember the right words to say and long words or names, can be hard when typing. And trying to stay positive and getting knocked back by more health issues not just for you but others around you.
Have you noticed that the older you get, the number of people you know, are no longer with us, and as I reach my seventies in a couple of years time, it is not getting any better. My head and heart still believe I am no more than 35 years old, even though all my grown up kids are older than that. My overriding goal is to see my great grandkids.
But as soon as my brain function tells me to get things done, it's either myself, my wife, pops! Or one of the kids or grandkids, family or friends something has happened. And you have to get through this, death, disease and more is always hovering.
When you find yourself, trying to get better, battling the odds of age and disease, to have the ability to understand why and do something about it is not only brave, but so precious and valuable with your lot.
And after that, my list of symptoms and conditions grow again, New diagnosis of Essential Tremor syndrome and then following on behind as a result of my mental health, Restless Legs syndrome. Again as I'm typing my legs are swinging and rubbing, feet twirling and so comical. And typically, no known cure.
This brief history of both of our dotage, us old codgers, sorry! Young uns, can only do what we can, despite the barriers, we will try our best and if it's not good enough well we will get up tomorrow and try again.
And as always something else will come along, but we have bouncebackability!
And on this forum, we have got people going through hell, panicking, distraught, not knowing what to do, no support asking for advice, asking for help. And like me, you understand that, you help with great advice and knowledge with experience of your diabetes, what it takes to use your time for others and I'm told its a gift!
I don't have the words to thank you enough the advice you have given me, the support, the sympathy, empathy, steering, until the poster and or me gets it!
That is something to be proud of, something to put on your CV. If there is a deity, and needs someone, I think this would just about get you in. But no way, are you a saint!
He knows your past! Like me, you have your failings and your sins!
So, that is it, my brain hurts now and I think my right foot has dropped off!
(Next!)
My prayers are with you, and keep on trucking, as you have done already.
You are a good person!
Then you say that I am as well!(lol)
Merry Christmas.
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