I posted a couple of months ago, when they originally thought I was type 2 at my GP's surgery, however I was supposed to be referred to the hospital because of my age primarily (26), but also some symptoms including weight loss and some ketones (my HbA1c was 103 at this point).
There was a mistake and I wasn't seen initially, but a week or so later, they did see me and the consultant diagnosed me as type 1. He was very certain of this. Started on insulin, CGM's, etc. etc. and although it's not been easy, I have actually had pretty good sugars (Libre predicts HbA1c to be 42) and I seem relatively sensitive to insulin e.g. carb ratio is 1:10 - 1:12/I can have hypos if not careful, total daily amount is normal for my weight.
However, I finally got my c-peptide and anti-body results over the phone from the DSN today. Anti-bodies all negative, c-peptide within the normal range given by the lab - I don't know units so hard to interpret exactly, but was told it should be within about 0.5 to ~2 and I was 1.38. I suspect nmol/L which might actually make it high by what I've read online (although not based on the limits the lab provided), but could also be ng/mL. Blood sugars 13-14 mmol/L at the time of c-peptide test. Either way, now I've got to wait to speak to the consultant, but I'm almost certain it's type 2.
Initially I thought this would be a relief - no more insulin. But it's really got me upset, I've had to tell a significant number of people about being type 1 cause hiding injections is hard (especially at christmas when you generally meet up with people and there is copius amounts of food is on offer) and I had to let people know at work cause of hypo risk etc.
Now I'm going to have to tell people it's actually type 2 and all the stigma that comes with it - especially as a young person who is a bit overweight (BMI currently ~28.5). I just feel so guilty and embarrassed. I also know this means my diet for the rest of my life has to be completely different. No more carbs. At least on insulin, as long as I was careful, I could eat semi-normally.
Basically, I just don't know if I can do this anymore. I know I shouldn't think like this, but I honestly don't know if a life like this is worth it. I know some people manage it well and will say I can have a normal life, but I really don't think I can (and certainly not a good, enjoyable life). I just want this nightmare to end. I just want this to be over.
There was a mistake and I wasn't seen initially, but a week or so later, they did see me and the consultant diagnosed me as type 1. He was very certain of this. Started on insulin, CGM's, etc. etc. and although it's not been easy, I have actually had pretty good sugars (Libre predicts HbA1c to be 42) and I seem relatively sensitive to insulin e.g. carb ratio is 1:10 - 1:12/I can have hypos if not careful, total daily amount is normal for my weight.
However, I finally got my c-peptide and anti-body results over the phone from the DSN today. Anti-bodies all negative, c-peptide within the normal range given by the lab - I don't know units so hard to interpret exactly, but was told it should be within about 0.5 to ~2 and I was 1.38. I suspect nmol/L which might actually make it high by what I've read online (although not based on the limits the lab provided), but could also be ng/mL. Blood sugars 13-14 mmol/L at the time of c-peptide test. Either way, now I've got to wait to speak to the consultant, but I'm almost certain it's type 2.
Initially I thought this would be a relief - no more insulin. But it's really got me upset, I've had to tell a significant number of people about being type 1 cause hiding injections is hard (especially at christmas when you generally meet up with people and there is copius amounts of food is on offer) and I had to let people know at work cause of hypo risk etc.
Now I'm going to have to tell people it's actually type 2 and all the stigma that comes with it - especially as a young person who is a bit overweight (BMI currently ~28.5). I just feel so guilty and embarrassed. I also know this means my diet for the rest of my life has to be completely different. No more carbs. At least on insulin, as long as I was careful, I could eat semi-normally.
Basically, I just don't know if I can do this anymore. I know I shouldn't think like this, but I honestly don't know if a life like this is worth it. I know some people manage it well and will say I can have a normal life, but I really don't think I can (and certainly not a good, enjoyable life). I just want this nightmare to end. I just want this to be over.