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I am so upset today. I have read a few posts here about people who have not accepted their diabetes and have paid a big price. I have been diagnosed for nearly 7 years now during which I had a couple of years of good control and the rest really bad. Now that I am trying to get back on track I am realising that I have never accepted the fact that I am diabetic and this post is not about self pity...its just about sharing how I feel.
During the last seven years I had my share of really tough times I had to go through and diabetes was the one thing that I could forget about. Diabetes just makes me feel like it is another thing I need to deal with and try to survive. And part of me feels like....I dont want to spend the rest of my life having to go from one battle to the other.....but normality is something that I think I will never achieve....and in the meantime time goes by....
I am not stupid...I know what it means to ignore being diabetic and I want to do something about it.... but today I am just upset....about all the testing, the problems, not being able to eat stuff, not being able to do things spontaneously like falling pregnant.....its just its never ending.... so how do i make my peace with it all!
During the last seven years I had my share of really tough times I had to go through and diabetes was the one thing that I could forget about. Diabetes just makes me feel like it is another thing I need to deal with and try to survive. And part of me feels like....I dont want to spend the rest of my life having to go from one battle to the other.....but normality is something that I think I will never achieve....and in the meantime time goes by....
I am not stupid...I know what it means to ignore being diabetic and I want to do something about it.... but today I am just upset....about all the testing, the problems, not being able to eat stuff, not being able to do things spontaneously like falling pregnant.....its just its never ending.... so how do i make my peace with it all!