Okay this is going to sound really pathetic because I am a 17 year-old college student who is really struggling with diabetes, I mean Ive got better recently, i.e I am telling my friends I have an insulin pump. But I dont know what it is, I just cant find the motivation to do any of the care, so I just eat like a normal person and shove a random load of insulin in and thats rare in itself, I barely test my bloods at all because I usually can't be bothered, and my doctor said if I dont sort it out by my next appointment (march 27th) he'll take my pump away and then everything will just get worse again. I just dont know what to do. I just feel guilty every time I hear my pump and I feel depressed every time my mother asks me what my bgs are, and I just lie to her. I just dont know what to do anymore. I know it all sounds so melodramatic, I mean I have a pump and people would kill to have a pump and Im just awful at everything diabetes :shock: sorry guys,