I can really empathise with you all here, I've been on the rollercoaster only 5 years as I became type 1 in my 50's, a real shock to the system but after the 'honeymoon spell' of the first couple of months where everything was perfect I have never had control for any length of time. What I would say about it though is stick with it, you've had it since small I know and had it longer but I'm suffering the consequences of high glucose after only 5 yrs without good control. I've had diplopia (double vision) twice , currently got it still and can't drive or even walk easily as only seeing through one eye you get no depth or width perception, it also took a week in hospital to get good pain control, something I may have permanently, because I've got a cranial nerve palsy, it's really not pleasant, have also had a bell's palsy. It's all nerve connected and wouldn't wish this on anyone. I do so understand the frustration of getting the highs though and even my boyfriend can't understand why I get so 'het up' I could trash the house, and have to admit to throwing my meter and also not testing the rest of the day until bedtime as I just couldn't take seeing a higher reading than I should have, given I've done everything I should, it's hateful and non-diabetics just don't fully understand it. The consultant I have just looks at numbers, gives no advice or help other than to refer me to the nurses, but that said, I have just got one who gets it totally and is the biggest help I've ever had, so please stick with it and best of luck, you're not on your own, and I have to agree, I also joined this site to be in touch with people who can understand and it's the best thing I did. Wishing you all well xx