- Messages
- 153
- Type of diabetes
- Type 1
- Treatment type
- Pump
I'm not sure why I'm posting this, I suppose I just need to get this off my chest. I have read so many posts here about Diabetics suffering from depression, I suffer horribly although I lack the good reasons that many other people have for being depressed.
My Diabetes has always been extremely difficult to manage and I thought that getting a pump last November would be the start of a whole new me. Please don't get me wrong - I think it is very good and has made controlling my Diabetes easier, although a lot more work. I think I am just tired, so very, very tired of being Diabetic . . .
I am sitting here writing this in tears, I have been in tears for 3 days, unable to sleep or even think straight. I felt my depression starting again about 2 months ago, so I increased my excercise and even started practising Mindfulness in order to deal with it myself. But now I am worried that I am going to do something really, really stupid.
I have no friends, as I work from home with my husband. I am very shy and feel extremely awkward in social situations, so tend to shy away from them. I am overweight and extremely embarassed by this - I even decided to try a low-carb diet to lose some weight and help my Diabetes, but within 3 days my bloodsugars were sky high and I felt even worse. I did lose 4lbs, but since going back onto slightly higher carbs (max 50g) I have put it all back on. I am so very ashamed of myself
I am tired ALL the time, and get absolutely no joy out of life. I do enjoy reading all of everyone's success stories and how most people are very supportive and helpful, but it only serves to remind me of my failures . . . I very seldom feel hungry, so I have to fight to get myself to eat. I downloaded myfitnesspal to see how much I am eating etc, to try to work out why I am not losing weight, but according to it I am only managing to eat about 650 - 700 calories per day this, it tells me, is not sufficient to get the correct nutrients.
I tried to be brave this afternoon and make an appointment to see a GP, but the earliest appointment is next week Wednesday. I booked it anyway. I would appreciate any help . . . . . :?
My Diabetes has always been extremely difficult to manage and I thought that getting a pump last November would be the start of a whole new me. Please don't get me wrong - I think it is very good and has made controlling my Diabetes easier, although a lot more work. I think I am just tired, so very, very tired of being Diabetic . . .
I am sitting here writing this in tears, I have been in tears for 3 days, unable to sleep or even think straight. I felt my depression starting again about 2 months ago, so I increased my excercise and even started practising Mindfulness in order to deal with it myself. But now I am worried that I am going to do something really, really stupid.
I have no friends, as I work from home with my husband. I am very shy and feel extremely awkward in social situations, so tend to shy away from them. I am overweight and extremely embarassed by this - I even decided to try a low-carb diet to lose some weight and help my Diabetes, but within 3 days my bloodsugars were sky high and I felt even worse. I did lose 4lbs, but since going back onto slightly higher carbs (max 50g) I have put it all back on. I am so very ashamed of myself
I am tired ALL the time, and get absolutely no joy out of life. I do enjoy reading all of everyone's success stories and how most people are very supportive and helpful, but it only serves to remind me of my failures . . . I very seldom feel hungry, so I have to fight to get myself to eat. I downloaded myfitnesspal to see how much I am eating etc, to try to work out why I am not losing weight, but according to it I am only managing to eat about 650 - 700 calories per day this, it tells me, is not sufficient to get the correct nutrients.
I tried to be brave this afternoon and make an appointment to see a GP, but the earliest appointment is next week Wednesday. I booked it anyway. I would appreciate any help . . . . . :?