I know exactly what you are feeling. Although my son was 11 when diagnosed, only 7 months ago, it felt like a bombshell had hit us. I am a single mum and my youngest 8 year old daughter has had epilepsy since she was 3. We have no other family support, but somehow we get through each day, together. My kids amaze me every single day. My son does not let diabetes get in the way of his life, and he is so mature with his understanding and management. He's been carb counting since the start, and he has ambitions now to study biology and chemistry and create his own artificial pancreas! As we say every day, "we" have diabetes, diabetes DOES NOT have us! The more we learn about the condition, the more we understand and management is easier, although we have bad days when we cannot explain high bg, his last Hba1c was 6.8, so we must be doing most of it correct. When the kids are in bed and I'm alone I cry, full of guilt that it is not me that has these conditions, but we smile together, and to see my kids happy and healthy fills my heart with joy. It will get easier, but as parents we will never stop worrying, it's natural xx