Dear kman
Your story has touched me and literally moved me to tears. Here I was, a grown man, sitting alone in a busy restaurant at lunchtime, wiping away tears while not taking my eyes off my phone. I just hope not too many noticed!
I am almost your age,being 48, and like you I am a type 2 diabetic who has been blessed with a lovely wife and a 10 year old son who is my pride and joy. So I guess your story is a bid too close to home to leave me unaffected.
But for your traumatic experiences in the army, that undoubtably contributed to your subsequent attitude towards food and your your diabetes and but for a cast of the genetic dice, like many others on this site, I could be sitting in you shoes right now.
I hesitated to write initially as what could I possibly add to what others have already said. But then the desire to communicate and express my sadness at what you are going through,as well as my support to you and your family,was too strong.
I admire your fighting spirit and your thirst for life so that you can be with your wife and son despite all the pain you are now going through. You are indeed fortunate to have such a loving family around you.
Rather than feeling angry and bitter about your situation, you have chosen to turn it into a cautionary tale and an alarm bell for us all. Numbers and statistics about diabetes complications may be scary but they are remote and impersonal and so can easily be put out of mind. Your tale is one that will stay with us for ever. I thank you.
I hope that the kind words expressed by others on this forum are a source of comfort and support to you. I also hope that through telling your story you are able to give meaning and purpose to your situation as well as gain catharsis and self-absolution for any past "sins" you may feel brought you to your current position. No matter what mistakes you may have made, and who amongst us makes no mistakes, you do not deserve your "sentence" and you should free yourself of any guilt or regret.
I wish I knew what I could do or say to make things better for you.
I just hope that knowing that your words had such a profound effect on me all the way In distant Cyprus, gives you some measure of satisfaction.
Wishing you and your family the best
Pavlos
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