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Good morning everyone,
I'm really scared that I might have lost control of my diabetes. After diagnosis in Dec 2011, my HBA1C was 9% and I was put on insulin. The shock was too much for me at first I had a nervous breakdown. However, I fought really hard to change my lifestyle and brought my HBA1C down to 5.7, was able to stop all meds in April 2013. I finally felt that I was able to take control and to a certain extent, felt normal again. But, at Christmas, I fell off the wagon and overindulged, this continued into the New Year. The odd biscuit, chocolate, booze - surely I was normal now, so it couldn't hurt right? Anyway, yesterday, I got my latest HBA1C, which was 6.3 (45 in new terms). I feel like I've totally failed and that I'll never regain control again. I haven't told my partner because I feel like I've failed- and he usually forgets to ask what my results are anyway.
I'm really, really scared that I've lost control - how can I get it back? Where do I start? I've stopped exercising, I'm scared about what I can eat and I'm not sleeping well. I don't even really want to leave the house.
Most importantly, I feel like I've forgotten everything I learnt and I now don't know what to do.
Has anyone else experienced this? Have I ruined everything? I hope someone can offer me some advice please.
Thank you for reading,
Tweetypie
I'm really scared that I might have lost control of my diabetes. After diagnosis in Dec 2011, my HBA1C was 9% and I was put on insulin. The shock was too much for me at first I had a nervous breakdown. However, I fought really hard to change my lifestyle and brought my HBA1C down to 5.7, was able to stop all meds in April 2013. I finally felt that I was able to take control and to a certain extent, felt normal again. But, at Christmas, I fell off the wagon and overindulged, this continued into the New Year. The odd biscuit, chocolate, booze - surely I was normal now, so it couldn't hurt right? Anyway, yesterday, I got my latest HBA1C, which was 6.3 (45 in new terms). I feel like I've totally failed and that I'll never regain control again. I haven't told my partner because I feel like I've failed- and he usually forgets to ask what my results are anyway.
I'm really, really scared that I've lost control - how can I get it back? Where do I start? I've stopped exercising, I'm scared about what I can eat and I'm not sleeping well. I don't even really want to leave the house.
Most importantly, I feel like I've forgotten everything I learnt and I now don't know what to do.
Has anyone else experienced this? Have I ruined everything? I hope someone can offer me some advice please.
Thank you for reading,
Tweetypie