Thank you Pavlos. I think you may have hit the nail right on the head.
You see, it's true I DID look after my parents and kids., after 10 years of working . However, that was a long time ago. My parents both died within a couple of weeks of each other, (in 1996) followed by my mother in law a few months later. Life changed suddenly, even though my Mum's death was expected, I was like a zombie for many months. I spent many years with ME like symptoms, though it was never diagnosed as anything. All my energy was devoted to my husband and two kids, so I never got back to work. And of course the kids don't need me as much now that they are grown up. One does still live with us (back after uni), which is nice.
So now there is time for me. But I don't know how to put myself first and get on with my life. When I had little or no energy, I always used it to look after someone else. Now I need to focus on Me and look after myself. Some how it doesn't seem as worthwhile.
Anyway, today I am starting again. I have lost a pound - only 105 to go! I will start my own thread soon, so that I keep motivated.
OK, so thanks again Pavlos, I am going out for a walk now - Seems a good day to start walking again.
