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- Type of diabetes
- Type 2
- Treatment type
- Tablets (oral)
Hi all, this is my first post on the forum, I have lurked here extensively and learnt a great deal.
Firstly I should introduce myself, and I'm going to apologise in advance for the long and rambling post that is to follow, as I guess this is a form of catharsis for me:
I was diagnosed in February 2013 at the age of 36, after having very gradually grown to feeling tired in the mornings, and then noticeably tired after eating, which culminated in a spell of frequent trips to the loo, the onset of this was very, very subtle and kind of crept up on me really. I then began to feel acutely unwell prior to catching a cold so went to the Doctors, she duly ordered a blood test and bang, fasting bloods of 9.2 and a HBa1C of 67, I was Diabetic - Big Shock, even though looking back it shouldn't have been.
Why shouldn't it have been? Well, the answers were pretty clear now, I was 19 stone with a considerable beergut, and worked a sedentary job(Graphic Designer, hence the name) and drank lager to relax every night after a stressful day at work.
So I had a follow up meeting with another Doctor, and to be fair, he put the fear of god into me about Diabetes, I was panicked, was terrified of eating food, he told me the HBa1C of 67 was indicative of someone with undiagnosed Type 2 over a period of 10 - 15 years or so(He later retracted this, but that's relevant in a little while).
All of this amounted to me having a rather stern conversation with myself, and resolving a course of action to deal with this new and somewhat bewildering problem - what can I eat? So I googled this place, read up on lower Carb intake, then learnt that Carbs basically turn to sugar in your blood, read about regular exercise and began to implement lifestyle changes required.
So, big changes. I started by walking 30 minutes a day, then 60 minutes a day, of course the Lager had to go, food intake was monitored, much more fresh vegetables and salads over pastas and breads, and rather quickly I had lost 4 stone, excellent. I began taking supplements: Chromium Picolinate, Alpha Lipoic Acid and Cinnamon in Onken Yoghurt(yes it tastes foul)Then the first 5 months post-diagnosis HBa1C result came back - I'd cracked it! a HBa1C of 36! and a fasting of 4.6, things were looking good!
But perhaps complacency crept in slightly, I loosened up on my carbs, snacking a bit, the odd bottle of red wine, but still strictly no sugary foods, and crushingly, I'd put a stone on, this was bad. My diabetic nurse taunted me saying "It'll show up on the results!", but it didn't. The next HBa1C was 35...interesting.
Still, the weight HAD gone on, and I didn't like it, I made an assumption that my particular type of diabetes was based on Insulin resistance, not lack of Pancreas function, due to the fact I have a predilection for weight gain, and opted to join my local gym. I began to take other recommended Diabetic supplements: Fenugreek, Chlorella, Co enzyme Q10.
This was a revelation.
I have been going to the gym now for 4 months, and this is where things get complicated. because weight loss has tailed off, however indicators for fat loss are still there, at last measurement I had lost 7 cm around the waist, and lost a further half stone. My gym work consists of an hours strenuous cardio, with alternating resistance regimes, I also now use Myfitnesspal on my phone to monitor calorie intake.
The gym, and the culmination of my lifestyle changes has given me a much greater clarity of thought, in the workplace I've been finding I've been leading, succeeding and thriving on rather demanding high pressure work projects, whereas in the past I would perhaps have more sloping shoulders and let a colleague take on the project.
But what I'm asking people here about is not the physical side effects of the gym, and the presumably even further tightened BG control but the mental side effects, because, I hate to say this, and I hate to feel like this, but I feel like I am having a midlife crisis. All the indicators are there, I'm seeking to improve my appearance and almost feel like someone in their early 20's - very appearance conscious, buying a lot of new clothes, feeling trapped in my personal situation with my partner of 15 years, and I feel terrible about that, simultaneously wanting to move on from her, and freedom away from her, but also fact I love her and don't really want to destroy the life we have built, but at the same time feeling hideously conflicted.
And I don't want people to think this is just some Narcissistic guy posting about his home life problems, and getting his diabetes off his chest, because I have questions...I'm trying to rationalise this, and this is the bit that's driving me to type out this lengthy diatribe at 1 am on a Thursday morning, when I know my alarm goes off at 7.
So, my questions:
Has anyone else experienced the same thing after diagnosis and getting their health back in order?
and, I'm sure this is purely an anecdotal thing, but could my high blood sugars have essentially 'fogged' my brain over a period of years that I am gradually recovering and repairing from, and this is just my normal self returning?
Firstly I should introduce myself, and I'm going to apologise in advance for the long and rambling post that is to follow, as I guess this is a form of catharsis for me:
I was diagnosed in February 2013 at the age of 36, after having very gradually grown to feeling tired in the mornings, and then noticeably tired after eating, which culminated in a spell of frequent trips to the loo, the onset of this was very, very subtle and kind of crept up on me really. I then began to feel acutely unwell prior to catching a cold so went to the Doctors, she duly ordered a blood test and bang, fasting bloods of 9.2 and a HBa1C of 67, I was Diabetic - Big Shock, even though looking back it shouldn't have been.
Why shouldn't it have been? Well, the answers were pretty clear now, I was 19 stone with a considerable beergut, and worked a sedentary job(Graphic Designer, hence the name) and drank lager to relax every night after a stressful day at work.
So I had a follow up meeting with another Doctor, and to be fair, he put the fear of god into me about Diabetes, I was panicked, was terrified of eating food, he told me the HBa1C of 67 was indicative of someone with undiagnosed Type 2 over a period of 10 - 15 years or so(He later retracted this, but that's relevant in a little while).
All of this amounted to me having a rather stern conversation with myself, and resolving a course of action to deal with this new and somewhat bewildering problem - what can I eat? So I googled this place, read up on lower Carb intake, then learnt that Carbs basically turn to sugar in your blood, read about regular exercise and began to implement lifestyle changes required.
So, big changes. I started by walking 30 minutes a day, then 60 minutes a day, of course the Lager had to go, food intake was monitored, much more fresh vegetables and salads over pastas and breads, and rather quickly I had lost 4 stone, excellent. I began taking supplements: Chromium Picolinate, Alpha Lipoic Acid and Cinnamon in Onken Yoghurt(yes it tastes foul)Then the first 5 months post-diagnosis HBa1C result came back - I'd cracked it! a HBa1C of 36! and a fasting of 4.6, things were looking good!
But perhaps complacency crept in slightly, I loosened up on my carbs, snacking a bit, the odd bottle of red wine, but still strictly no sugary foods, and crushingly, I'd put a stone on, this was bad. My diabetic nurse taunted me saying "It'll show up on the results!", but it didn't. The next HBa1C was 35...interesting.
Still, the weight HAD gone on, and I didn't like it, I made an assumption that my particular type of diabetes was based on Insulin resistance, not lack of Pancreas function, due to the fact I have a predilection for weight gain, and opted to join my local gym. I began to take other recommended Diabetic supplements: Fenugreek, Chlorella, Co enzyme Q10.
This was a revelation.
I have been going to the gym now for 4 months, and this is where things get complicated. because weight loss has tailed off, however indicators for fat loss are still there, at last measurement I had lost 7 cm around the waist, and lost a further half stone. My gym work consists of an hours strenuous cardio, with alternating resistance regimes, I also now use Myfitnesspal on my phone to monitor calorie intake.
The gym, and the culmination of my lifestyle changes has given me a much greater clarity of thought, in the workplace I've been finding I've been leading, succeeding and thriving on rather demanding high pressure work projects, whereas in the past I would perhaps have more sloping shoulders and let a colleague take on the project.
But what I'm asking people here about is not the physical side effects of the gym, and the presumably even further tightened BG control but the mental side effects, because, I hate to say this, and I hate to feel like this, but I feel like I am having a midlife crisis. All the indicators are there, I'm seeking to improve my appearance and almost feel like someone in their early 20's - very appearance conscious, buying a lot of new clothes, feeling trapped in my personal situation with my partner of 15 years, and I feel terrible about that, simultaneously wanting to move on from her, and freedom away from her, but also fact I love her and don't really want to destroy the life we have built, but at the same time feeling hideously conflicted.
And I don't want people to think this is just some Narcissistic guy posting about his home life problems, and getting his diabetes off his chest, because I have questions...I'm trying to rationalise this, and this is the bit that's driving me to type out this lengthy diatribe at 1 am on a Thursday morning, when I know my alarm goes off at 7.
So, my questions:
Has anyone else experienced the same thing after diagnosis and getting their health back in order?
and, I'm sure this is purely an anecdotal thing, but could my high blood sugars have essentially 'fogged' my brain over a period of years that I am gradually recovering and repairing from, and this is just my normal self returning?