Hi & firstly I want to introduce myself.
I'm a new dad, 32 & relatively fit, I was diagnosed type 2 just before my 31st birthday with a HbA1c of 16 and in the year afterwards lost about 5 stone (from 18 1/2 to 13 1/2) & came down to a more normal HbA1c.
The reason I am posting now & not then is because I have become less & less motivated recently & am struggling to keep up what I was doing right. This may sound really insensitive given the everyday hassles & hardships I know that some of you go through especially the Type 1's who I have great sympathy with as I don't know how you do it & don't look forward to insulin injections at all. I debated with myself long and hard before posting but felt that this should be a support network and everyone is entitled to support no matter how trivial their issues may seem to others. I just don't want anyone to think I am rubbing their faces in my success so far with my treatment as that's not the point in fact it is why I can't talk to my nurse or family & am on here.
On the surface my diabetes control is better than ever & my HbA1c last week was 4.9 & my nurse told me to come off Metformin completely (I was on 4x 500mg a day). All my other results are OK and my cholesterol is 3.3 so why am I now struggling more than ever?
When I was diagnosed I knew I would have to do something drastic & did & overnight changed my diet completely & started exercising. I still do the exercise & eat (mostly) the right things but I am eating much more again now & chocolate every day.
My father died at 39 from a heart attack after only just being checked over by a heart specialist (it’s possible he had diabetes and it wasn’t found). Both my grandfathers died from heart problems relatively young so I was always aware that I would have to look after myself later in life. I think this is why I was doing the things I shouldn’t have been before I was diagnosed and why when I was I then turned everything around so quickly.
What my nurse doesn’t seem aware of is that although her scales say my weight is the same as 6 months ago I have been at least ½ a stone lighter than I am now (now around 14 stone). I am worried that whilst she & everyone thinks that everything is now OK, I am actually losing my willpower especially as I have been told she doesn’t want to see me for a year now.
I even went and bought a large bar of chocolate during the day at the weekend and finished it all off! I feel terrible because I know I’m not controlling this but I am getting praise for what I’ve previously achieved (not helped by a massive promotion at work & the attention that comes with my daughter).
I guess I feel a bit of a fraud & just wanted to share it with someone as I am having trouble getting the halo off when talking to those around me! I hope no one minds my cathartic story & I know I should get some perspective but this is the first time I feel I can’t really talk to a support network I have grown to rely on.
I'm a new dad, 32 & relatively fit, I was diagnosed type 2 just before my 31st birthday with a HbA1c of 16 and in the year afterwards lost about 5 stone (from 18 1/2 to 13 1/2) & came down to a more normal HbA1c.
The reason I am posting now & not then is because I have become less & less motivated recently & am struggling to keep up what I was doing right. This may sound really insensitive given the everyday hassles & hardships I know that some of you go through especially the Type 1's who I have great sympathy with as I don't know how you do it & don't look forward to insulin injections at all. I debated with myself long and hard before posting but felt that this should be a support network and everyone is entitled to support no matter how trivial their issues may seem to others. I just don't want anyone to think I am rubbing their faces in my success so far with my treatment as that's not the point in fact it is why I can't talk to my nurse or family & am on here.
On the surface my diabetes control is better than ever & my HbA1c last week was 4.9 & my nurse told me to come off Metformin completely (I was on 4x 500mg a day). All my other results are OK and my cholesterol is 3.3 so why am I now struggling more than ever?
When I was diagnosed I knew I would have to do something drastic & did & overnight changed my diet completely & started exercising. I still do the exercise & eat (mostly) the right things but I am eating much more again now & chocolate every day.
My father died at 39 from a heart attack after only just being checked over by a heart specialist (it’s possible he had diabetes and it wasn’t found). Both my grandfathers died from heart problems relatively young so I was always aware that I would have to look after myself later in life. I think this is why I was doing the things I shouldn’t have been before I was diagnosed and why when I was I then turned everything around so quickly.
What my nurse doesn’t seem aware of is that although her scales say my weight is the same as 6 months ago I have been at least ½ a stone lighter than I am now (now around 14 stone). I am worried that whilst she & everyone thinks that everything is now OK, I am actually losing my willpower especially as I have been told she doesn’t want to see me for a year now.
I even went and bought a large bar of chocolate during the day at the weekend and finished it all off! I feel terrible because I know I’m not controlling this but I am getting praise for what I’ve previously achieved (not helped by a massive promotion at work & the attention that comes with my daughter).
I guess I feel a bit of a fraud & just wanted to share it with someone as I am having trouble getting the halo off when talking to those around me! I hope no one minds my cathartic story & I know I should get some perspective but this is the first time I feel I can’t really talk to a support network I have grown to rely on.