For a long time I felt like I was happier when I lost weight, but that's all based on appearance really, if I think back to how I really felt emotionally, mentally and health wise it was horrendous, I was just so used to functioning like that it felt normal.
Having been well for a couple of years I can now see how bad I really felt!
I'm glad you got yourself back on track with insulin , it's definitely something you need to be ready for.
I still find things a struggle and like you said diabetes makes food a much bigger thing than I would like it to be. For me every bit of food equates to weight gain. It's a love hate thing!!
Those books really helped, I'm only a little way through the 8 step programme, the next part involves analysing my body in front of the mirror in various stages and I'm not ready for that yet!! Although putting it off will get me nowhere!!
I find that eating a normal balanced diet is the best way, if I deny myself things I end up binging on them and that makes me feel worse, so although I eat healthily I still have treats like anyone else.
I struggled a bit with this forum because of all the emphasis on specific diets and people writing what they weigh and their clothes size, makes me feel worse about myself. Hence now I'm just contributing where I think I can help.
Keep me posted with how you get on