Terminal and. Scared - UPDATE !

[Sable_Jan]

Great Idea Jan, about to try and sleep, thanks for everything over the last few days sweetie.

Tell them all I'm still trying to fight


XXX.

Will do x

 

[Sable_Jan]

Cant Sleep. ... Rubber Mallet anyone ? LOL. xxx.

I was lying semi-awake aching then too.....only just seen your requests tho.....I DO have one somewhere....mayb I'LL try it next time

 

[Robinredbreast]

I was lying semi-awake aching then too.....only just seen your requests tho.....I DO have one somewhere....mayb I'LL try it next time

Same here, I had a rotten nights sleep, but no rubber mallet here

 

[Mrsass]

Rubbish nights sleep for me too, must be something in the air!

How is it that we get rain all day but during the night it's boiling! I'm going to have to turn nocturnal!!

Hope we hear from you before Thursday Kevin, will miss you, love to you, Wendie & family xxx

 

[kateincornwall]

Hi Kevin and Wendie, plus dogs of course , in my thoughts as always , sending hugs xxx

 

[kman]

No time to spare neighbour who's WIFI network Im hitching a ride on will be off to work soon and then he switches off,

Good day so far with a few awful short term twinges of my pains,

Mood good i guess.

Missing internet, Bored !

Will try again later.


Xxx.

 

[Danaemac]

Hi @kman

How's things ? I've not been on in ages been getting new shift pattern at work matched up with pump Basil's = nightmare and sore fingers hope you are baring up I've stopped getting notifications from the thread for some reason but I'm working on it

Take care
Love and hugs to you all
Danae xxx

 

[Sable_Jan]

No time to spare neighbour who's WIFI network Im hitching a ride on will be off to work soon and then he switches off,

Good day so far with a few awful short term twinges of my pains,

Mood good i guess.

Missing internet, Bored !

Will try again later.


Xxx.

Fingers crossed he forgets to turn it off

 

[Sable_Jan]

With some phones you connect other devices to internet through them. ..... Mayb possible with yours? Got dyslexic fingers....keep typing the vowels wrong way around.

 

[kman]

Hip hip

Rubbish nights sleep for me too, must be something in the air!

How is it that we get rain all day but during the night it's boiling! I'm going to have to turn nocturnal!!

Hope we hear from you before Thursday Kevin, will miss you, love to you, Wendie & family xxx

HIP HIP HOORAY. Private Thank You. ... Made me smile.

Found another connection temp.

Love and Big Hugs Always Sweetie.

xxx.

 

[Mrsass]

Hip hip



HIP HIP HOORAY. Private Thank You. ... Made me smile.

Found another connection temp.

Love and Big Hugs Always Sweetie.

xxx.

LOL told you I'd do anything for you xx

 

[kman]

LOL told you I'd do anything for you xx

Just Checking in not sure how long we will have connection to neighbours internet and much to do,

Pain really awful last few days,

Ok in spirits i guess until night pains come, then get very low, screaming and wishing not to wake up, but another day comes round,

Missing chatting to you all,

Love Always.

xxx.

@Mrsass

 

[Sable_Jan]

Hi Kevin,
Quick reply before your neighbour shuts down.
Your candle wick fell over and went out last nite so it's been.burning today instead....
Hopes for a good sleep for you tonight :{{xx}}

 

[kman]

Hi Kevin,
Quick reply before your neighbour shuts down.
Your candle wick fell over and went out last nite so it's been.burning today instead....
Hopes for a good sleep for you tonight :{{xx}}

Sorry Jan lost connection b4 i could answer,

Thanks for the Candle

Don't burn your house down LOL

And I know in your heart that Candle NEVER went out ... and that's All that matters to me sweetie.

Night Night.

Love and Hugs Always Sweetie

xxx.

 

[kman]

04:25am. Awake just over an hour after just 2 hours sleep,

Wife Snoring !

Puppy Snoring even more Loudly !!!

Crying my eye's out, and absolutely No idea why ?

I guess it's Hormone's right ?

Been like this for nearly 40 minutes

Birds are starting to sing,

And Kevin feel's SO sad.

Is this it ?

Will I Never Feel Happy Again ?

Is the end around the corner, will I die sad ?

Hope running out,

Strength and stamina almost completely gone,

I have never felt lonelier than I do now.

It feels so Dark inside

I pray for rest and peace.

But so often I feel it will never happen for me

I will Die in such pain.

My only real fear, Dying in pain

I wish we could have gone to Dignitas.

Over a year ago we planned, today would finally brought Peace

But we couldn't afford that option, that Dignity !

I Love You All

xxx xxx xxx.

 

[Mrsass]

Aw I hope you managed to get back off to sleep dude! And that your pain has subsided a little?

I woke an hour before my alarm this morning but I won't complain because it's not as bad as 4am!

I pray that you do not die in pain, I disagree that your strength & stamina have almost gone, you are one of the strongest people I know!!

Xxx

 

[zand]

Kev. In this day and age no-one should be dying in pain. Can't you ask for more painkillers? Antidepressants? My friend who was also terminal went to a hospice, not to die, but so that they could sort out her pain meds properly. After all they are the experts in pain relief. They understand that what works for one person does not always work for another.

I'm saying this out of compassion and I hope everyone understands this. Proper pain relief would bring you the rest and peace that you deserve.

Anyway, I won't be able to post for a while, as I'm off doing other things.

take care

zand
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[kman]

Kev. In this day and age no-one should be dying in pain. Can't you ask for more painkillers? Antidepressants? My friend who was also terminal went to a hospice, not to die, but so that they could sort out her pain meds properly. After all they are the experts in pain relief. They understand that what works for one person does not always work for another.

I'm saying this out of compassion and I hope everyone understands this. Proper pain relief would bring you the rest and peace that you deserve.

Anyway, I won't be able to post for a while, as I'm off doing other things.

take care

zand
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Yes hun it should be that Nobody dies in pain,

But because of the Conditions and the Drug's I'm on there are restrictions on what I can have.


Alzo. EVERYBODY please understand. My Nerves are dying, all of them. .......... Hence an inevitably painful death,

They have done Everything they can for me, I attend. 2. Pain.Clinic's, I have a Medical Psychologist working with me,

It's more the coping. With, than trying to get rid of the pain that I am struggling with

Anyway, iminawful pain in the hands so sod typing LOL

Love Always Sweetie

xxx.

 

[kman]

Aw I hope you managed to get back off to sleep dude! And that your pain has subsided a little?

I woke an hour before my alarm this morning but I won't complain because it's not as bad as 4am!

I pray that you do not die in pain, I disagree that your strength & stamina have almost gone, you are one of the strongest people I know!!

Xxx

A I pray that you grow wi vs eventually ... and take up you destined role. ...

As An ANGEL.

Theres a few of you on here sweetie.

Love and Hugs Always.

xxx.

 

[Sable_Jan]

Sorry Jan lost connection b4 i could answer,

Thanks for the Candle

Don't burn your house down LOL

And I know in your heart that Candle NEVER went out ... and that's All that matters to me sweetie.

Night Night.

Love and Hugs Always Sweetie

xxx.

Thank you xx
Burns safely on kitchen windowsill x