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I have been type 2 since 2007 (or at least diagnosed since then) and have always struggled to control it properly because, to be honest, I like the wrong kind of food. I also suffer from depression that has deepened and been added to by post traumatic stress disorder after my lovely husband died without warning, in front of me at Christmas, of a pulmonary embolism. Since then my control has all but disappeared. I find myself eating the easiest thing in reach, and having chocolate binges on some days. On other days I eat hardly anything and just drink (coffee, water or squash) instead (No alcohol I'm allergic to it)
The only thing that has stopped me from taking my own life, are my children. One 21 year old daughter and a 10 year old son. Both have Asperger Syndrome. But even with them around each day is a massive struggle to deal with. I need to do housework and sewing work (I'm self employed) but just don't have the energy or the will to do as much as I should do.
Even increasing my insulin (slow acting taken morning and evening) I still cannot get my numbers down into single figures. I know I need to diet and exercise, I need to motivate myself, but I feel so tired and achy all the time that I make excuses to myself why I cant walk into town and have to take the car. Ive been referred onto the exercise referral scheme, but keep putting off making the appointment with the gym. It's like I'm scared of doing anything that could help control my Diabetes. I want to lose weight, struggled with low carb as I ended up knackered, tried Slimming World and panicked. I don't know why. I was told to eat lots of fruit, but that sends your blood sugar up, couscous and hummus taste disgusting to me and salads and vegetables give me stomach problems
Reading back I seem to be very self pitying and excuse making, but I truly don't know how to get myself out of this pit. Tackling the Diabetes seems to me the best way to start, but where do I start?
The only thing that has stopped me from taking my own life, are my children. One 21 year old daughter and a 10 year old son. Both have Asperger Syndrome. But even with them around each day is a massive struggle to deal with. I need to do housework and sewing work (I'm self employed) but just don't have the energy or the will to do as much as I should do.
Even increasing my insulin (slow acting taken morning and evening) I still cannot get my numbers down into single figures. I know I need to diet and exercise, I need to motivate myself, but I feel so tired and achy all the time that I make excuses to myself why I cant walk into town and have to take the car. Ive been referred onto the exercise referral scheme, but keep putting off making the appointment with the gym. It's like I'm scared of doing anything that could help control my Diabetes. I want to lose weight, struggled with low carb as I ended up knackered, tried Slimming World and panicked. I don't know why. I was told to eat lots of fruit, but that sends your blood sugar up, couscous and hummus taste disgusting to me and salads and vegetables give me stomach problems
Reading back I seem to be very self pitying and excuse making, but I truly don't know how to get myself out of this pit. Tackling the Diabetes seems to me the best way to start, but where do I start?