Hi Donna, welcome to the forum
First of all it is NOT your fault that you are diabetic, you did not cause it. And second let me tell you that it is normal to be upset at the diagnosis, goodness, you have just told that you have a disease, on top of that the doctor has not explained anything to you at all but given you a pile of medication and left you totally puzzled, scared, depressed, oh a whole range of emotions, I remember when I was first diagnosed I was blazing angry, then just really depressed, its all normal, you will learn about diabetes and as you understand this disease more and more you will feel more confident about everything.
Donna, let me reassure you a little bit here, you probably have heard all horror stories about diabetes and how people go blind and all this, but this only happens if people dont control their blood sugars over a long period of time and by controlling your diabetes and keeping your blood glucose at non-diabetic levels you can avoid complications.
Tell first what is your blood glucose reading, and which medication did the doctor prescribe? Did he give you a meter and test strips and what food do you eat, write down a couple of days menus and we will see how we can help you along to get an understanding of diabetes and what you can do to help yourself.
You will soon find that people in here are very experienced, caring and supportive, do read the sticky posts in each section, ask us questions if you need explanations and information, there is always someone here with just the right answer.
I will shut up for now, be warned at first you will be overwhelmed with information overload, getting advice left, right, back, front and centre but we can also help with that, help you sort the wood from the trees.
All the best
Karen