Sorry that zapped all of your strength last night, I know it's a mental bind to try and deal with this, trust me I have also been there. I am only taking a punt that you might log in one last time. I am also not sure what support you were looking for ? I know this is all new for you and it's alot to take in, I struggled massively in my first year, been diagnosed 3 years now, at the moment I am on a even keel, highs and lows but pretty stable, it has to be for me as it affects my moods and i am fortunately grounded by my 7 year old daughter, otherwise I think I would tell this to do one too. I completely respect your honesty but I don't think closing doors is going to help you, you can't shut this one away, if you don't take your insulin you body and mind will suffer greatly and you'll let this win. If you want to win find some coping techniques that will ensure you have success, so try a completely different approach ? One of the things i've learnt is that mentally this takes all your strength, I was getting anxious with high/low control, not coping, my doctor confirmed that fluctuating blood glucose was getting me down, I went low carb to avoid this and also reduce the amount of insulin I needed to take, next I went on a meditation course, my god that helped, I suddenly felt like a huge weight lifted and I floated out of the sessions, it also gave me back my wisdom and old life and I felt more peaceful. If i get anxious then I just do a 5 min breathing exercise which calms my mind and helps me to stay focussed, or I go for a walk or bike ride, I am a much gentler person now I still swear but i'm kinder to myself and try to be kinder to others.
I don't know what help you're looking for but there is a wealth of experience on this site and trust me it's no easy ride for anyone, no one wants this, but if you need help don't be a stranger.
I am writing this as I hope you can just stay tuned and not fight everything that represents type 1, I will personally be there if you need a friend, don't let the D win, and stay well.