- Messages
- 625
- Type of diabetes
- Type 1
- Dislikes
- Selfish people, arseholes who think they know it all, ignoramuses, chavs and people with no manners. People who play music on the bus or train full blast on their phones.
I had a bowel resection 17 months ago, thanks to a blood clot that cut off the blood supply to my already ineffective pancreas and small bowel. I had a 30% success expectation to survive and have done very well. I am on Warfarin to control my bloods coagualency (clotting). I'm starting to get the same symptoms again, my wife and teenage daughters are asleep and don't come on here and I'm experiencing the same symptoms again since last night. I'm scared if I go through it again I may not be so fortunate. Sure diabetes is an added nuisance and I'm taking 26 tablets a day. I am worried for them and don't want to die, I take my medical instructions very seriously and to the letter, but I'm frightened to death I won't see 40. Diabetes is a stroll in the park on a sunny Sunday. I just need to get this out of my system as I don't want to die before my daughters 19 and 16 get married. I want to see my grandchildren and hold them and be the man who walks my girls down the aisle. I'm strong but also realistic. This is no feeling sorry for one's self story, I don't pity me, but life can be such an ar$e, light words indeed, but the word I would use also has 4 letters. I'm not crying, just disappointed with the way things have panned out. Just need to say to someone and get it written how I feel. I'm not feeling low/suicidal, just aggrieved. All I want is a family holiday and people are trying to convert me to being a bleeding zoned-out robot instead. Family and friends first, work to provide for the family I love, me, last. I'm happy to have half an hour on my daughter's acoustic. The neighbours don't like my Les Paul and the Marshall amp, less, especially with the BOSS high power foot effects-pedal. I love it though, FOOs, manaics, Green Day, Chilis, pumpkins, suede, et al. I don't feel down, if this persists tomorrow, I'll go to my specialist, it MAY, be a blip. I know my body though. If the news isn't good. The neighbours can ****** off, as we all submit a request as a family, I play and whoever chooses sings vocals. Take care brothers and sisters, the...almost gave my name away, martwolves will try to give objective advice. Sleep well.
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