Hello, I'm new to this site. I just joined because I'm tired of being such a failure with my Type 1 diabetes. I was diagnosed when I was 11, and I've had ups and downs with it. It causes me a lot of stress and anxiety, and I often shut down and get depressed because I can't seem to find that magic mindset. My biggest problem is checking my sugar.. I know that I should, but I'm always afraid of the number I'll see. So I don't test, which basically guarantees a high result anyway. It's to the point where I've been in the hospital for DKA twice since I was diagnosed. I was good for a while so that I could get a pump, but once I got it I stopped checking again. The pump is the only thing keeping me alive right now. My last A1C was about 4 months ago and it was around 11%. I'm just sick of always failing at controlling my diabetes. I'm depressed and I'm overwhelmed and I could really just use some advice. Thanks in advance to anyone willing to offer some advice!