I'm really struggling at the moment, and I'm just not sure where to start. I had very good control up until about 18 months ago, when I had my daughter. All through my pregnancy I was able to keep good results (a few too many mild hypos, but nothing serious). I think my HbA1c was around 5.6 by the end. But since she was born things have gone off the rails. Initially I was having to eat more due to breast feeding, and my glucose would swing high and low a lot as her feeding pattern was very inconsistent. In addition, having been so strictly controlled while I was pregnant, as soon as I didn't need to be as strict I went totally the other way. I started eating far too many of the wrong things - cakes, chocolate etc. My mood really plummeted, partially due to the bad control which I would feel guilty about and then turn to comfort eating to cheer myself up, but I also have really struggled with motherhood. I was diagnosed with postnatal depression in March last year. I got some counselling which was helpful at the time, and I felt better for a while, but since the new year I'm going down again. My last HbA1c a few months ago was up to 6.9, I have no doubt it would be higher if it was done today. I'm not sure how to dig myself out of the mess I've gotten into. I feel so despondent at the moment. Has anyone else been in a similar situation? How did you get back on track and stay there?