Some more info:
As a child, I really craved sugar. I think I only felt human when I had sugar in my system. I'd neck bottles of syrup from the cupboard - I even drunk cough syrup when it was all I could get. As I got older, I had lots of sweets and fizzy drinks - then energy drinks. If I didn't have sugar in me, I'd be grumpy, irritable and sluggish. As soon as I had sugar, I felt alive again.
About a year ago, I cut out all refined sugar and began focussing on low GI foods. After a few days of hell, I began to feel alive all the time. It was great! However, there was no middle ground. As soon as I had a bit of sugar, I went into a cycle and then felt terrible if I didn't have more.
I feel good now. I have occasional sugar (like a squirt of ketchup) and I'm mostly sticking to a low-GI diet while occasionally having white bread or pasta.
I actually feel really healthy now. My blood pressure is perfect, my BMI is perfect and I have lots of energy. But I worry about my high numbers in the morning.
I guess my fear is I've damaged myself in some way from all the sugar in the past.
My numbers before and after dinner seem ok. (6.2 average before and 6.4 two hours after.)