I'm new to this forum so hope you all don't mind me butting in. :?
I'm a Type 1 using Accu-Chek Spirit pump since December 2007 (can highly recommend by the way
) and I was diagnosed on 13.02.1985 when I was the ripe old age of 3!!!
I understand what people mean by depression or diabetes burden (which I haven't heard of before but it does fit the bill). I seem to feel fed up and frustrated with myself and my diabetes every so often but I tend to notice it more when going away and having to think so much of what I need to take with me and how much and where to store it and what to put it in and so on and so on - it's an even worse feeling when going abroad as you have to think about it even more so and it does my head in. It's alright once i'm up in the air on the plane.
There's also odd days when I just feel fed up and I can't think why - this maybe relating to blood sugars, i.e. if i've been running low and feel rubbish because of it or I have a banging head. The low's make me feel even worse sometimes now as I'm a member of slimming world and don't want to eat something extra and ruin all my hard work that i've achieved doing that. Sometimes when i'm low I can rebel and just want to raid everything in the kitchen - after doing this later on it can make you feel a bit down as I think "I shouldn't have done that, I didn't need to eat all that".
I think diabetes burden is a very good description for these feelings rather than depression - after all I think most of the time it's the diabetes that gets to us, especially after nearly 24 years of having it in my case.
I look on diabetes as I rule it, it doesn't rule me.
Thanks.
Nat