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Hi, have been type 1 since 17 (1997), first few years went ok, no real problems. Seemed to keep sugars ok and stuff went fine. Since I hit the 5 year mark I have been really struggling, I kinda feel like I am black and ruined inside and I can't get it out of me. Like having an awful internal tattoo I hate and cant get rid of.
Things over the last year have got worse, I am really low and think a lot about ending it all and escaping from the clostraphobia of diabetes, am on anti depressants and see my doc and diabetes team a lot but the NHS where I am (Tunbridge Wells) don't have any kind of place to meet other diabetics and chat etc.
Anyway sorry to leave such a "downer" message, i hope it does not make anyone feel blue as what I really want is to firstly know if other diabetics feel this way and how they combat it or beat it? I excercise, don't drink, don't do drugs etc, live clean and try and be positive but nothing seems to work.
Am I just a miserable b*$tard?!!
Thanks, Jack x
Things over the last year have got worse, I am really low and think a lot about ending it all and escaping from the clostraphobia of diabetes, am on anti depressants and see my doc and diabetes team a lot but the NHS where I am (Tunbridge Wells) don't have any kind of place to meet other diabetics and chat etc.
Anyway sorry to leave such a "downer" message, i hope it does not make anyone feel blue as what I really want is to firstly know if other diabetics feel this way and how they combat it or beat it? I excercise, don't drink, don't do drugs etc, live clean and try and be positive but nothing seems to work.
Am I just a miserable b*$tard?!!
Thanks, Jack x