I was exactly the same. As the Doctors are saying, I pulled the short straw. They can't understand how everything that has happened HAS happened in such a short space of time.
Sorry for this really long rant.
I was in complete denial. I thought, 'Hey this isn't fair, I'm so young.. I'll live a little now and deal with it in a few years'. Well unfortunately it just doesn't work like that. Basically I ignored it. Wouldn't go to appointments. My a1c was 16. For the best part of two years I didn't test. Drank coke, ate cake, got stupid drunk, didn't test. As far as I was concerned, I was not diabetic.
Well, my body was in constant Ketosis. I started wasting away despite eating all the time. My nerves all became damaged and my vision started going. Eventually I started vomitting non stop. I mean absolute never ending. I thought I was going to die. I spent most of 2008 in hospital hooked up to machines, with feeding tubes stuck in my jejenum because my stomach is now destroyed. I needed a jejunostomy eventually (i dropped to under 6 stone). Which is two tubes stuck inside your body, with one COMING OUT of your stomach. Hooked up to feed machines for 18 hours a day. I never thought I'd see the other end. But here I am. I'm doing good.
So I have:
Severe gastroparesis (paralysis of the stomach, vagus nerve which controls stomach function has been completely destroyed by high blood sugars)
Autonomic neuropathy (completle nerve damage to the autonomic system and digestive tract)
Peripheral neuropathy (from my feet all the way up my legs and my hands)
RETINOPATHY (scariest thing of all. I've had lasers 7 times. Getting more next week IF they have space to laser. It will not settle at all)
And my albumin urea shows protein leaking from my kidneys
This is a case of the extremities. I'm sure there are a lot of you here who have had periods of denial and done the same but been lucky enough not to suffer any damage. But this is a warning. It could happen.
Sorry to lecture but I don't wish any of this on anybody. Start taking control now. Once you do, I promise it feels so good and you will want to keep it up. Also, the best thing I ever did was get rid of that **** lantus on my own terms and switch to levemir. Something I would look into. It made me feel so much happier very quickly. I think lantus is a horrible invention. Also, check DAFNE. Best thing I ever learned about. Learning my insulin to carb ratio made it possible for me to feel completely normal and worry a lot less. I got my hbA1c down to 6 thanks to DAFNE. I eat what I like when I like. (when I'm not having a gastroparesis flare up .. I suppose I can't really eat what I like but life is a lot better).
I'm gonna write a book, make some videos, start some gastroparesis awareness stuff because there is not enough. Hardly any at all.
So yep. Start taking control now. I promise you will feel better.
All the best,
Linda