Hello everyone As a relatively newbie to T2 I have changed my lifestyle and eating dramatically. I've put eating out on hold for 6 months until I have low BG and look stick thin (ok thinner ... much thinner). I have to share this and get this off my chest because people who don't suffer like us, just don't get it. I also need to find out what other people do when they eat out. I do really admire people that have had this condition for many years and are just getting on with it. For me eating out was one of life's pleasures. Italian food, Indian food, Chinese food, fast food, sandwiches the lot. I love the exotic sauces, flavours and spices. Some foods are meant to go with each other and be enjoyed in their entirety. I am going to try to convey the frustration I feel at the moment, its not a rant don't take it that way I am going to attempt to put in to text an emotion and how charged I am and how I see things, which is not easy to do without it being misinterpreted as a tantrum, which it isn't. Right now, I am focusing on my short term plan and being completely regimental about it. Very strict low carb and low sugar. I started off dangerously high BG and I need to get that down as quick as possible. I can do this, as long as I know that after I have a decent level and can maintain it, I can eat out now and then. I can not spend the next hopefully many many decades living on some lean meat, fish (which I don't like that much) and vegetables if I can not have the occasional meal out now and then. I need excitement and variety and its the thought that I can which is motivating me. I realise its a mental battle but the idea of giving up what I like when I eat out seems like a life sentence right now. Mentally I don't want to accept this is the situation. I want to push back, stick 2 fingers up at this disease and find a way that I can have some enjoyment, without causing irreversible damage. I need some leeway and what I call the 90:10 diet. 90% of the time I will be healthy, 10% I can have what I want. I have read quite a lot of articles on the subject and I respect that many people may find these articles very helpful, but I find a lot of them infuriating. Maybe I am at times in denial maybe I haven't broken the bad habits but I am not a robot, and still feeling out the boundaries. I keep reading time and time again "instead of having something I like, have yet another plate of vegetables or a salad". This just lights my fuse. Seriously, the next person who tells me to have a salad is going to end up eating it. I am not going out to a restaurant and paying for a plate of mixed veg. It defeats the point of going out and having the food I like. I might as well stay at home and eat my own bland food. (It doesn't matter how I tart up my own cooking, which may be 100 times healthier, it still doesn't taste like food I like made by a trained chef). So I realise there must be lots of people who have felt this way before. How did you deal with it? I have heard that some people are very strict and others throw caution to the wind and accept for a day or so their sugars will be high. As mentioned, the only people that can truly understand me are those that are in our exclusive club and have had this experience.