Well what can I say guys....All I hear is wow you are so strong if that happened to my child I don't think I could cope!!.what.. of course you cope you have no option but to cope I think from the day my son was diagnosed t 18 months I have just gotten in with it. Never had a chance to sit back and take it all in. I think you morn the child you had previous to the diagnoses, the pain you feel when you look at your child and you want to take all of it away from them and I just break down. I know there are people who are worse off so I appreciate my situation. It's just at times I feel my son's frustration and I wish i could take it away. The look people give you when you say your child is a diabetic... drives me insane did he eat too much sugar? No he flipping well didn't so what does that mean then he can't eat sweets. I just start feeling angry and annoyed and hurt and so so so tired of diabetes. I feel my son's disappointment with his situation I love him I miss him. I miss the happy boy who loved being a child not the one who hates being a diabetic because that hurts... sorry guys I just had to rant.
Seeing your child suffer must be any parent's worst nightmare.
I am full of admiration for what you write, not just because you are coping, as you say, was there ever any other option, but because you seem very in touch with the way you feel about the whole situation.
Copying may have been the only option, but you still have to be strong enough to manage it. It is not easy and not a given.
Something like this, a serious diagnosis for a loved one particularly a child, involves a similar process of loss and grief as a bereavement. Psychologists state that we pass through various stages during our grief process: denial, anger, bargaining, depression, acceptance. The sequence in which we experience these and the period of time we each spent in each stage. differs from person to person, in accordance with our personalities and circumstances.
In your case, you have had to be strong for your child. So I suspect that you have had little time to properly grieve and are still working your way through the various stages, probably shifting from one to the other and back again. Hence the emotional roller coaster.
Things will get better with time.
Diabetes is a serious condition but it is one that is manageable, can be controlled and does allow for a full and satisfying life as long as you respect and play by its rules.
Please stick around and use this forum to rant or seek advice from its many knowledgable members who are all too happy to share the benefit of their experience.
If you search I am sure there is even a section of the forum just for parents.
Welcome and best wishes
Pavlos